I still look the same , just that i was so much cuter back then!
My eyes look pretty in the past , but not now!
So in love with myself, well satisfied with what I am though!
Exams period now ! I supposed to be studying right now.
Well after the exams , I'm no longer a year 1 .
So unbelievable just like im going to be 18 this year.
Time flies! My brother is done with his year 3! He graduated :o !
Cruise during semster break , can't wait.
A getaway , my most loved thing to do.
Travel travel travel!
Mum shifted my table to her room, my room looks bare now hmmm..
I wonder what should I add in to make it a more efficent space.
And above , my science notes <3 Best subjects I ever came across.
Anyone who wants to read my notes , I assured you that you will score an A for science.
Hahaha , self-boasting. * Lame*
I don't bear to throw them away , they are like the
most precious notes I ever done up.
When I looked at my bio notebook , I suddenly remembered a copy of bio notes I done up for someone.
I supposed it has been thrown away haha , that's sad but well it was just an aid for him to study back then !
I'm going to get a new dreamcatcher very soon, it irritates me every single night when I woke up realising I had a dream last night. Especially bad ones , they make me even more tired.
Going to choose a very pretty one and import it !
Let's not talk about CNY.
Let's talk how I'm really feeling right now.
2 more grades for a cert to be qualified to teach in ballet.
I know my parents wouldn't want me to give up now, they invested so much just for me to dance.
Neither I want to disappoint them too.
I want to get it over and done too but I dont find the drive to get me to dance.
14 years of dancing , be it whatever genres I'm doing.
I see no achievement , no improvements in myself.
My dream in the past , was to be a prima ballerina in a ballet company.
Things gradually changed as I grew up.
I rejected offer from arts school because I knew Singapore wasn't the right place to dance.
No matter how , we promote dance or even arts here , no one will ever really succeed.
We were trained to be realistic , to be working just for money only.
So even you are the best among the best in art school in Singapore, when you head overseas , you are basically nothing.
Ballet has always been my priority , my main reason of dancing .
Nothing beats it. Ballerinas always impressed me more than any other dancers do .
Another problem , I love to perform when Im confident.
Performance has always been satifying for one , when comments were great & you get good reponses.
And I hated competitions, ever since that very year.
I thought I gotten over it , it seems like I haven't really recover from failure.
What most importantly now , is to get me to keep dancing .
I need people around me to get me dancing , not just pure talking.
Talking won't help .
It is supposed to be last time.
I deleted things about you from places I can view.
I changed everything I had that reminded me
of you .
I kept those things about us ,somewhere I wont touch & see.
I will avoid knowing your happenings .
No longer be in the thoughts of you , no longer be living in the past.
I won't talk to others about you with a tingling of sadness within me
From now on , I lead a life without your concern , not even with your news.
You should too.
We shall all move on , for a better life ahead.
One day if I happen to bump into you in the streets , I hope by then , we will all be fine & better in life.
Dont ask if you saw me upset , Dont .
Because I wont too.
It should be a clear cut long ago just that no one is willing to.
I gradually learnt to let it go , because it no longer hurt as much as it does like in the past.
I wish you well for the future.
You are much more capable than what you are now .
Let's all say hi to 2012!
2011 was rather a normal and peaceful year to me except for the emotions part.
Still feels that I didnt studied for the past one year in poly.
Almost all my friends are turning to 18 this year , got to have alot of plannings for those close to me.
Something bad about turning 18 this year , I no longer can say I'm still a young girl anymore :<
This dont seems to be a good idea :< I dont like , would rather stay young.
Spent my last day of 2011 , with Harold , Jaime , Joel , Joyce & Licheng.
Fireworks was really awesome and pretty. Like bright stars exploding.
Love the colours but why didnt they have something like HAPPY 2012 , or something near that?
Just explosion of colours was really a little boring.
People around us started to scream at 11.45pm & we went like hello , its still not even 12am people!
First day of 2012, met up my usual clique .
Had fun at Playnation haha really.
Revelations was really a game about exposing yourself & thoughts.
Dennis said that we should get back to this game 5 years later , answers will be even more shocking.
Jovan was a little spoiler for things but well, haha at least he treated us , Thanks ! :>
Happy Birthday to Fang Zhenghua , what a nice birthday 1/1 . Everyone count down to his birthday every year uh.
I got few meetups I want do before end of 2011!
But tell me why dance occupys 4 days out of my 7 days :<
Unless I meet before dance class ;o?
And why does 24th Dec and 31st Dec falls on saturdays?! FMLLLLLL
Hate it hate it hate it.
I already skipped ballet last week which means I have to go on this 24th ,
31st , aiya... taoyan .
Went SEPHORA with Jaime ytd , never been there though.
No wonder , the market caters more to women because there are always people who are willing to spend so much on fragrances , cosmetics and washes.
Didnt got anything there because being a no income student , let's smartly save up first
and spend those bucks when we are working adults in 3 years time ;o
