Chapter 436 ; First operation of my life
It all started when in February where I had so much pain just before I entered my aircraft for work.
The pain was so overwhelming that my strongest painkiller that I have did not worked at all. I made the decision not to burden the rest of the crew in a way of getting myself off the flight but I added trouble for them to make them work even harder which I am apologetic on this part. After my decision of getting myself off the flight , I was wheelchaired out of the aircraft from T2 all the way to my company's control centre. It was the most embarrassing day of my life in my uniform and so many people staring at me, traveller , staff and colleagues.
And I had some complications with my company after that incident which made me more vocal about people who are not able to handle their work. I went on a healthscan on my own and found out that I have cyst growth from in my pelvis area which lead to my severe period pain.
At the intial stage it was only a 4cm growth.
Almost a month later , when I went to a gynae specialist, it grew an cm to 5cm and it was diagonose as a endometriosis , a common women problem but mine went a little huge and it was affecting my lifestyle and my mood.
Just right before my operation , I went to do the paperwork and scans, it was a horrifying 6.8cm.
Many nights before I had to do my operation , fear and worries consumed most of my nights. I was worried for myself.
When the day of the operation came , I was a little nervous but the waiting time to get paperwork and admission done was a little long which made me frustrated instead. When I was being push into the operating theatre, it was a little different from what you see the TVB dramas. Having myopia is an advantage at such times because you cannot really see what is around you . When the anesthesia was given to me, it really just happened in seconds and the next moment when you wakeup , you are already in the recovery room. Recalling what happened when I wokeup was a little difficult because I probably didnt know what I was saying. I struggled to speak and when I do , I was blabbering.
It was painful to move every single movement that was taken for granted was restricted by things that was connected to me and also my wound . Time in the hospital was hard to pass, medical personnel was people who really take care of you in times of need. Being a 6 bedded ward, I was awake many tiimes by noise and other patients and also myself. My BP machine keep beeping because I belong to the low BP level group each time it measure me , the nurses have to off the notification manually. It happened so many times that the auntie in the same ward as me had to press the nurse call light to ask them switch it off..
I was thankful for my love ones to visit me, everyday I was just anticipating for two things , for people to visit me and meal times . I cannot imagine those who have to stay long in the hospital it was so tough. I was filled with self pity for myself for my short stay there.
I finally knew I am not able to be not active for the whole day , I was bored to death but I didnt had mood to do anything else because the pain and emotions was affecting me .
Lying there with minimal movements led to bed rash for me even now that I am typing here on my bed, I had kneel on my bed because thats is the only way I can sit up not for long . The heat on my back is so much that it led to a rash which means I cant lie for too long, the skin is hot even to touch.
The first time I stepped down from the bed which I took a long struggle , each steps was a small and slow that it was comparable to the old grandmother . Now that I am discharged and home , at least I can sit and stand on my own with minimal help but the walking speed is equally slow.
Let's hope I recover as soon as possible because being in this state is sad and pathetic.
I waited , I thought you would come. But I was disappointed even though I knew the result way before. I laughed at my foolishness , pitied myself but I still love you..
The pain was so overwhelming that my strongest painkiller that I have did not worked at all. I made the decision not to burden the rest of the crew in a way of getting myself off the flight but I added trouble for them to make them work even harder which I am apologetic on this part. After my decision of getting myself off the flight , I was wheelchaired out of the aircraft from T2 all the way to my company's control centre. It was the most embarrassing day of my life in my uniform and so many people staring at me, traveller , staff and colleagues.
And I had some complications with my company after that incident which made me more vocal about people who are not able to handle their work. I went on a healthscan on my own and found out that I have cyst growth from in my pelvis area which lead to my severe period pain.
At the intial stage it was only a 4cm growth.
Almost a month later , when I went to a gynae specialist, it grew an cm to 5cm and it was diagonose as a endometriosis , a common women problem but mine went a little huge and it was affecting my lifestyle and my mood.
Just right before my operation , I went to do the paperwork and scans, it was a horrifying 6.8cm.
Many nights before I had to do my operation , fear and worries consumed most of my nights. I was worried for myself.
When the day of the operation came , I was a little nervous but the waiting time to get paperwork and admission done was a little long which made me frustrated instead. When I was being push into the operating theatre, it was a little different from what you see the TVB dramas. Having myopia is an advantage at such times because you cannot really see what is around you . When the anesthesia was given to me, it really just happened in seconds and the next moment when you wakeup , you are already in the recovery room. Recalling what happened when I wokeup was a little difficult because I probably didnt know what I was saying. I struggled to speak and when I do , I was blabbering.
It was painful to move every single movement that was taken for granted was restricted by things that was connected to me and also my wound . Time in the hospital was hard to pass, medical personnel was people who really take care of you in times of need. Being a 6 bedded ward, I was awake many tiimes by noise and other patients and also myself. My BP machine keep beeping because I belong to the low BP level group each time it measure me , the nurses have to off the notification manually. It happened so many times that the auntie in the same ward as me had to press the nurse call light to ask them switch it off..
I was thankful for my love ones to visit me, everyday I was just anticipating for two things , for people to visit me and meal times . I cannot imagine those who have to stay long in the hospital it was so tough. I was filled with self pity for myself for my short stay there.
I finally knew I am not able to be not active for the whole day , I was bored to death but I didnt had mood to do anything else because the pain and emotions was affecting me .
Lying there with minimal movements led to bed rash for me even now that I am typing here on my bed, I had kneel on my bed because thats is the only way I can sit up not for long . The heat on my back is so much that it led to a rash which means I cant lie for too long, the skin is hot even to touch.
The first time I stepped down from the bed which I took a long struggle , each steps was a small and slow that it was comparable to the old grandmother . Now that I am discharged and home , at least I can sit and stand on my own with minimal help but the walking speed is equally slow.
Let's hope I recover as soon as possible because being in this state is sad and pathetic.
I waited , I thought you would come. But I was disappointed even though I knew the result way before. I laughed at my foolishness , pitied myself but I still love you..
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