Indefinite story 390

It's been an hour I laid on my bed doing nothing. Don't really want to do anything right now and I cant get to sleep.
Thought back of what happened this year, how I mistreated people, making them leaving me and stuffs.
It wasn't on purpose for such attitude. I admit my emotions are written right smack on my face , I just couldn't control it.I tried to but not yet grown to learn that fully.. for whom ever I offended, especially my friends, I apologize sincerely.. it's just me and myself of not able to control my own feelings

Now this one dream keeps coming back to me . I couldn't and never forgotten it ever since the first time. The one that I woke up remembering the only sentence in the dream : Live life better than you should.