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2012-01-28T01:31:00.000+08:00

Let's not talk about CNY.
Let's talk how I'm really feeling right now.
2 more grades for a cert to be qualified to teach in ballet.
I know my parents wouldn't want me to give up now, they invested so much just for me to dance.
Neither I want to disappoint them too.
I want to get it over and done too but I dont find the drive to get me to dance.

14 years of dancing , be it whatever genres I'm doing.
I see no achievement , no improvements in myself.
My dream in the past , was to be a prima ballerina in a ballet company.
Things gradually changed as I grew up.
I rejected offer from arts school because I knew Singapore wasn't the right place to dance.
No matter how , we promote dance or even arts here , no one will ever really succeed.
We were trained to be realistic , to be working just for money only.
So even you are the best among the best in art school in Singapore, when you head overseas , you are basically nothing.
Ballet has always been my priority , my main reason of dancing .
Nothing beats it. Ballerinas always impressed me more than any other dancers do .

Another problem , I love to perform when Im confident.
Performance has always been satifying for one , when comments were great & you get good reponses.
And I hated competitions, ever since that very year.
I thought I gotten over it , it seems like I haven't really recover from failure.
What most importantly now , is to get me to keep dancing .
I need people around me to get me dancing , not just pure talking.
Talking won't help .

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2012-01-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

It is supposed to be last time.
I deleted things about you from places I can view.
I changed everything I had that reminded me of you .
I kept those things about us ,somewhere I wont touch & see.
I will avoid knowing your happenings .
No longer be in the thoughts of you , no longer be living in the past.
I won't talk to others about you with a tingling of sadness within me

From now on , I lead a life without your concern , not even with your news.
You should too.
We shall all move on , for a better life ahead.
One day if I happen to bump into you in the streets , I hope by then , we will all be fine & better in life.
Dont ask if you saw me upset , Dont .
Because I wont too.
It should be a clear cut long ago just that no one is willing to.
I gradually learnt to let it go , because it no longer hurt as much as it does like in the past.
I wish you well for the future.
You are much more capable than what you are now .

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2012-01-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

Let's all say hi to 2012!
2011 was rather a normal and peaceful year to me except for the emotions part.
Still feels that I didnt studied for the past one year in poly.
Almost all my friends are turning to 18 this year , got to have alot of plannings for those close to me.
Something bad about turning 18 this year , I no longer can say I'm still a young girl anymore :<
This dont seems to be a good idea :< I dont like , would rather stay young.

Spent my last day of 2011 , with Harold , Jaime , Joel , Joyce & Licheng.
Fireworks was really awesome and pretty. Like bright stars exploding.
Love the colours but why didnt they have something like HAPPY 2012 , or something near that?
Just explosion of colours was really a little boring.
People around us started to scream at 11.45pm & we went like hello , its still not even 12am people!

First day of 2012, met up my usual clique .
Had fun at Playnation haha really.
Revelations was really a game about exposing yourself & thoughts.
Dennis said that we should get back to this game 5 years later , answers will be even more shocking.
Jovan was a little spoiler for things but well, haha at least he treated us , Thanks ! :>

Happy Birthday to Fang Zhenghua , what a nice birthday 1/1 . Everyone count down to his birthday every year uh.

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2011-12-21T12:46:00.001+08:00

I got few meetups I want do before end of 2011!
But tell me why dance occupys 4 days out of my 7 days :<
Unless I meet before dance class ;o?
And why does 24th Dec and 31st Dec falls on saturdays?! FMLLLLLL
Hate it hate it hate it.
I already skipped ballet last week which means I have to go on this 24th ,
31st , aiya... taoyan .

Went SEPHORA with Jaime ytd , never been there though.
No wonder , the market caters more to women because there are always people who are willing to spend so much on fragrances , cosmetics and washes.
Didnt got anything there because being a no income student , let's smartly save up first
and spend those bucks when we are working adults in 3 years time ;o

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2011-12-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

Although it was in a preschool performance , it was a splendid one that we did .
The response that the parents gave were really the motivation for us to do it well.
I was like drained out at the end of the day .
We went for K after performance in between the 2 hours break we have before dance class.
Listening to Harold sing was really funny , he kept saying that he know how to sing all the songs , ending up merely reading the lyrics off! But at least he can read more traditional Chinese words than Jaime ! :>

I didnt went for ballet teehee..
Bet teacher cursed me off , but after I bathed I really went to sleep with my wet hair~
9pm , that was like way too early for me.
Cannot be bother to reply people even when Im awake . Hahs sorry guys :>
Its going to Xmas soon & new year.
I hope I get to meet my 2 dear friends of mine.
Months of not seeing them ..

Still got to work more on TDA , if not I'm never going to succeed.
Must find a solution to my ever tiring & sore feets !
It's still with the timing fault for rumba and cha :<

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2011-12-09T23:00:00.001+08:00

MST is over which means here come 3 weeks of holidays!
Something unfortunate happened this week.
The person I mention in my previous post passed away..

Jac , Thanks for being the most awesome and favourite lecturer I ever had.
You never failed to make the class enjoyable .
I'm glad 01 met you as our marketing lecturer & tutor.
I'm glad 01 did you proud , I'm glad you leave us great memories.
I will remember your words , and learn to brush up.
You left too soon , 6 weeks of knowing each other wasn't enough..
Your very unique personality , left us a strong impression.

I'm glad your family appeared strong , I guess part of it was because they knew your character.
You love to bring joy to others' life and not sadness.
You will be a happy angel , watching over your love ones and protect them.
We love you and will miss you greatly..

Mood : [Empty,always]

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2011-11-29T22:56:00.001+08:00

Marketing presentation is over.
I really want to thank Jacqueline for her comment today.
It's the first time I got a compliment from a teacher.
All the while , no one actually praised that my presentation skills was not bad after all.
I would brush up on my skills so that I will be a better speaker next time.
That really encourages me a lot.
It really made me really happy.

Actually I admit I do mind other's comment about me , but still I shan't keep talking about it.
You are judgemental to others , so do I .
I always does that.

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2011-11-27T14:18:00.001+08:00

Hi world.
For the updates on my facebook status , im glad to say daddy's is discharged today.
My mind has been so tired that i cant focus whatever that is on my screen right now.
It eventually will just go blank.
Though I am not as hardworking as the rest , to not sleep and do their project, but i still feel tired, no matter how many hours I slept.
Something that is bad now which is , after that jive class on thrusday, the ball of my feet hurts very badly. Till now , it seems that I cannot exert much strength on my legs.
This is bad , really bad.

Just celebrated Julia's advanced birthday ytd and today , I hope she was happy.
For my dearest baobei , please be happy all the time ok ?
Stop stressing yourself out if not you will fall sick all the time!
Haha , With loads of love <3
Happy 17th birthday .

Just to share my dearest A-lin new song<3
It really reflects well.

I know sweethearts , I'm not ok , but just let me be.
Pretend I am , thanks .
If there was a chance to turn back , I rather we never met, at least you wouldn't be so hurt.

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2011-11-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

This semester got so busy with projects and projects.
Dance practices got much more challenging and fun too.
It seems like everyone has their troubles recently.
Friends around me , having all sort of different problems .
Be it relationship , studies or even dance, there seems to be trouble somehow.

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2011-10-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to describe such feeling sometimes.
Guess everyone should have experience it before somehow
Your heart just sank right after the moment you were laughing away, being fine .
It's like nothing is wrong , you just dont feel like smiling , talking , or even do a single thing.
Perhaps its the numbness in my knee which made me feel so unhappy , my legs feels like I have been through a very vigorous dance exercise which I dont think so.

There's a thousand and one feeling that has been running through my mind about dance.
I really dont get why these dance clubs cant collaborate as one.
Or even be nice to each other at least.
Even we are doing different genres, we are still doing a same thing which is dance.

And as for myself, I admit I got preferences on who I like & who I dont like.
Those people they may not offend me , but you know when you see a person , automatically you will know you like that person or not.
Perhaps I dont know your capability, but all I know , you are trying to do your duties.
But to be qualify for it , I strongly believe that you need the potential first.
Not all dancers can teach.
That's the reason why , some can never be choreographers.
Why must they stick to the tradition?
Like they always say , when you want to make it big , think out of the box.
I think the downfall has been way too long, shouldn't you guys be doing something to change it?
It doesn't mean when the steps are like this , you have to follow precisely.
Got to be flexible in thinking too.
Lastly , you have to earn your respect from others before you lead them.
If not , you will never be able to convince them with whatever you say or do.
It's my point of view. So if you are unhappy with this, just tell me about it then.
Come on , everyone joins that and stay because they got interest in it.
Do something to hold their attention in it , before they are all going away.

Ya , I'm guiding a group of dancers too..
& I know I'm not successful too.
I got this very bad things about me, my mood affects everything I do.
So when bad mood strike during dance, I'm always stoning there.
Not enforcing on the terms that I spoke to them about.
It's really hard to bring about a group of dancers with real commitment.

On a side note.

This 2 videos are really very nice Latin formation

This has really nice dress that brings about effects.

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2011-10-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

School's been cool this 2 days.
I meant the lecturers. They seems cool for now.
Economics , Principle of marketing , Front office management.
They all sounds not bad for now.
Surprisingly , General Education got better by now, at least they tries to make it sounds more fun .
11-5 , no break :< Yoga class from 3-5 though!
I hope it turns out fun, after yoga shall go for recap class at 5.30 till 7
& I will be meeting Jeff & Roy for dinner ! Happy girl!

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2011-10-04T22:06:00.005+08:00

Was at a kid's event at united square last Saturday to help out.
& everyone got to agree that he got a sickening face that I dislike alot.
At least my mum & Julia feels so too.

Back from Taiwan for a while
I really didn't bought things for anyone .
Except for myself.

My first try on the doll-grabbers and I got a 晴天娃娃:)
Cute isn't it !
Experience hot weather & super windy situations since there are typhoons nearby.
Jaime & I can totally imitate the way taiwanese speaks to you especially the moment you enter their shop.
Shan't elaborate on my taiwan trip .

School's starting in a week time.
End of my boring holidays
I hope the upcoming Sem 2 of poly life will make me feel that im studying at least..
Law , Econs , CS , Principles of Marketing, Front office mangement.
All the theory based modules, I hope I do better the next time round.
There's still the most irritating Gen Ed & a new module [Physical Education ] Wowwww
Now dancesports got an additional day for formation :/
I hope its fun.

I'm going to get the ipod touch white very soon. It's so frigging pretty!
Just that I was thinking , should I get it when IT fair is here / I get it online.
There's like no much differences though.
And finally I'm going to be able to change my phone very soon.
When November is up , I'm going to get it change.

Planning to get Htc sensation .
I aint going to buy an iphone when i have an itouch. I'm not a fan of apple.
Htc Evo 3D effects is way too much , I cant take it.
I wish for a pretty white phone like LG optimus Black [ Contradicting name isn't it? ]
Can Htc have nice white phones too ? :) I would be very glad to get it

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2011-09-19T23:05:00.003+08:00

For my dearest baobei , Jaime Sia Su Feng
Happy 17th Birthday!
Hope your wishes come true!

I do hope you really enjoyed 18th sep with us.
Didn't managed to go cable car with you since you choose to go kbox.
I'm sure Lam is going to treat you all much better than the previous guy.
I believe he will cherish you in the right way & of course I hope you do cherish him too.
He's a good guy not to be lose my dear.
I'm glad we are always there for each other when possible.
I'm really thankful for best friends like you & lia.
11 years & counting , we are all going to be sticking to each other till we are old isn't it?
I dont hope there will ever be a chance of us drifting away just like ya , you know who..

Lia & I will always want you to be better & happier with life.

We will all going to be better & blessed.
With love,
Yiling.

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2011-09-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

Went to support Michelle at Teenage Face of the Year for the past 2 weekends.
& That super pretty girl won the championship for her category!

(During the semi-finals)
Pretty her isn't it? Ignore my super cannot make it face.
Something to say about her , ever since I knew her from Poly.
She always give me the super confident look which is good.

Holidays has been so so for me , rotting at home watching movie , going for dance classes.
The previous rumba class was alot for us to recap
& now what~ 2 weeks later I'm going for my Taiwan trip already!
I wanted to attend the dan;s festival for La & cuban salsa & argentina tango ! But sadly it clashes with my F1 job.
& Saw my hair ? It turned darkkkkkk .
I was really not used to it in the first place, one thing good about dark hair , w/o makeup
I wont look that yellowish skin.
I'm really wondering to dye a somehow in between colour at least not so dark .
But I only got 1 day before my Taiwan trip & the end of my F1 job
Shall reconsider again very soon.

The super adorable smurfs~ Lalalalalalalala
If only smurfs really exists ,I would be damn super happy!

Because of this song , I went to watch Korean shows -.-"
秘密花園 was a really nice Korean show
Actually I used to love K-pop & shows before the craze came.

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2011-08-21T20:19:00.004+08:00

Just as I mentioned on twitter that I will blog today~
I was studying on bed as usual with my cute little red table
Sidetrack a little , my cute red table has history , it accompanied me through the hardest studying time , O Levels.
Done homework on it , did all my sketching.
Very soon you will see the photo of my beloved little red table.
Hold on!

My mum came in with a bowl of cookie & cream ice-cream to give me , I told her I hadn't taken my lunch yet , how can eat ice cream.
She replied me that Desserts should be taken before meals , just like you always drink your milktea with an empty stomach . ( Her logic :/ well... errr)
A little later , she came in with a tray !
Mcchicken with fries , greentea , apple and snickers somemore!
I was like : Huh? Mummy you got problem is it ? Suddenly so niceeee?
She say : Like that then let you feel the warmth of family ma .
Treat you nice complain , not nice also complain. Like that then can make you study better .
Isn't this like shocking :o?
Ok maybe not , but to me yes , everything prepared nicely somemore.
Hahah , I still ask her , got motive is it ? or got poison inside my meal.

Here comes the evidence :

I know this look likes a patient style isn't it.
I do my study like this , kind of weird but better than I sit on chairs.
& FYI , those curious on my super xxl men's tshirt !
Tada! there you see it
& YES I do wear shorts , its just super shortpants with bigsized tshirt thats why.

MinJie bought these masks for us from Korean.
I like the tarot card design package.

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2011-08-18T15:25:00.003+08:00

Hello everybodyyyy.
I'm like super awesome bored now .
Imagine I had to have such life for so many weeks? I think i'm going to die .
Though I'm those who love staying at home and rot , I cannot rot more than a day or 2!
I feel so restless after that.
Gosh gosh gosh :(
2 papers down , tomorrow after my IT exams all the ICA modules are done except Exam based .

My postages came again =]
Bought 2 passport holder , i couldn't made my mind on buying which one .
Thus , tata , bought both of them !
I did bought a new long dress too~
I guess soon , its hard to find any pants in my wardrobe which is super surprising.
I used to hate wearing dress & skirts.
On a side note : please dont mind my hair or how i look , because when im home~
I dressed very shabbily & I clip , twist , twirl ,my hair up if the weather gets very warm

One of the passport came with a luggage tag , a notebook and a ezlink sticker!
I found a website selling super cute stuffs !
ClickClick the image below!

Notebooks , stickers , Post stick , stationery , rings and alot more!

Pretty isn't it !

These are like so adorably cute!
But I got a bad habit , I buy , keep and never use them.
End up I dont know where it goes!

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2011-08-05T00:09:00.004+08:00

Love this effect much!

Met up with Judith at SP before heading back to West Spring to see our lovely mummy chia & sing a birthday song for her at least .

In advance , Happy birthday Miss Joyce ! <3

I kept went like : Oh my , so long never take LRT ! So long never come panjang .
I saw Mdm Hartati ! :D Miss her so much with her lessons too !
I miss doing sciences still.. Even though everyone tell me science in higher level are super hard, but if you really like something , no matter what you will still do it isnt it?
So I told her , I will be back to look for her !
There are really teachers I'm grateful to, I really think that they did an impact to my life.
Just like Miss Joyce , Mdm Hartati , Miss Law too

Miss those art times like seriously .
Miss Joyce complained she always had to nag at me because i dont do work.
I was like 哪里有 ! :(
Sufieyan was as usual the typical him, irritating as forever.
Royce was really into photography , he really takes good photos ! *Envy*
If royce you happen to see this , I telling you :Good Job ! Way to go & bring us better photos! :D
Miss Joyce kept saying : Royce , I so proud of you !
This meet up is way too short , so much to talk about , not enough time .
Senja was a place of memories , haha..

Had to leave west spring for dancesports.

Kelly was like : You still not sian uh , outside dance, in school still dance."

Was browsing through facebook , seeing it on newsfeed , that people had nice dance photos.
I couldn't help but to feel sad.
I do miss dancing so often , I miss dancing things I really enjoyed.
I don't know what's happening too.
Should I say I lost the drive in doing things well or should I say I lost confidence in doing things right?
In the past , I dont feel as tense in every performance I do.
I used to be like : "Ok , last min go up also can "
No opportunity to perform on bigger stages anymore, no longer as qualified as before.
I really want to , be like the rest , to at least work for something I can acheive..
No more drive to do so , not much to hope for to..

Hey Sister , I don't feel my existence to you anymore.
This is even stronger when I see you .
I really totally don't feel the existence at all.
I miss you sis , very dearly .
Miss everything in the past, but well no point holding on isn't it .
If you happen to see this , I do hope our relationship still stays like before..

Did I share this with you guys?
Been listening to it so much !
Been weeks and still loving it , A-Lin! * Screams*

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2011-07-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

Finally I told her how I felt after so long .
She still says the same thing . Anyone but me .
I really dont get why the hiding from me.
I really dont get why .

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2011-07-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

Had a shopping spree today at bugis with Julia & Joyce .
Jaime gave that a miss because she had to take care of her little sister.
There will still be chances ~ Definitely.
It's been like 7852795729801 years ever I went to shop at there .
Was having this conversation with Joyce today which I think is worth sharing.

We both had the same thing happening to us.
In the past , we used to actually afraid to admit that we were from ballet .
Because people do mock at us as they didn't know how to appreciate ballet or even cultural dances.
They are only interested if you were from hip hop / modern dance.
To me , I was opposite from others , in fact I don't appreciate hip hop .
It's to a personal preference , if you were to ask me do any traditional dances or modern dances.
I will definitely choose traditional dances.
As we grow up , I found that it was nothing to be embarrassed about if we dance classical.
It's they who don't appreciate what we are performing.

In fact , Ballet is the fundamental of all dances.
Now , in poly , when others ask me what i do for dance , I just say : Ballet & Chinese dance
I started Latin was because I was interested , I wanted to experience all types of genre.
I had a teacher who gave me interest in Latin when I was in primary school.
I don't reject the idea of learning hip hop , but if I was given a choice , I will still stick back to what I love.
I do really hope someday , people in the world who don't appreciate classical will one day learn how to appreciate it .

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2011-07-13T12:39:00.003+08:00

Hadn't been a very happy girl recently.
Kept wanting to go singing with darlings !
But I didn't ask la , cause I want to save!

I received a good news today ::D
which is .........

Happy girl much , I think they lied about the no experience required thing lor.
Of course employers do want staffs that know a little in servicing .
I do hope things go well!

& DHLFM Year 1 is going to MBS Skypark for a visit!
Excited much :D
Going to take nice nice scenery photos, hope it doesn't rain or what !
If not spoil people's mood !

Just as I calculated my expenses yesterday , I was like oh yes ! I get to save much this month!!
But I only remembered that I got to buy my contact lens within this month :<
This sucksss!

Advantage of bloghopping to famous bloggers, you get to know interesting articles & interesting places to go!
Happened to read Beatrice Tan's blog , I get to know the top 25 travel destinations in the world.
It was from The TripAdvisor .
All the pretty pretty places , like Venice , Rome , LA , San Francisco ,Barcelona!

End with 2 photos with my korkor!

He wanted to make his eyes bigger :/
We should all long ago accepted that our eyes are small!
Haha I dont care ;D

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2011-07-06T21:39:00.003+08:00

There's no school for the next 2 days !
It's pretty sad that Ben isn't teaching us for S&F anymore as he got operation & need recuperating time.
Hope he gets well soon!
Today's IT lesson sucks ttm, he's always not talking to the point & what most importantly is I have to say Stats is a hard topic , I tried paying attention end up giving up in the end.
Going to get Jason / Alicia to help me with it =]
Projects are all coming like finally , Gen-ed , S&F .
Hmm.. to be honest , I sucks at presenting all the time.

Walked all the way from MLT1 to MLT8
It's the first time I climbed up the hill, SB&Media is so much nicer than ABE !
Not fair, hope when ABE renovates , it is going to be much more better / at least comparable to SB.
The Hilton part time job gets me so interested , hope I am able to clinch it .
F1 event will be very fun I guess , despite the long hours.
It's even longer than my usual work hours!
More than 12 hours a day , 3 continuous day .
I bet I will never get out of my bed the next day.
It just sounds so interesting isn't it.

The best part of the day , Dancesports at night.
I'm aching in my arms that i cant lift a bottle of 7up today!
Lucky I didnt schedule work tomorrow , if not how to carry dishes & clearing it!
Tomorrow will be a better day hopefully .
Anticipate new dance rountine=]

On a side note , do you know your words hurts me every single time?
Please be nicer with your words , that person didnt offended you at all.
You left me all hurt when I'm alone, you should know how i felt

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2011-07-02T22:51:00.003+08:00

Since I got no dance at night , I spent my time packing up my superb messy room!
I found alot of things that i bought brand new ! Hahaha , just that I misplaced it for very long !
Now I got a super clean room!
Well... to be exact not really , cause i haven't pack my table ;/
I was quite cheerful during dance in the noon!
Though it was a simple dance , but I really did enjoyed it ! :D
It makes people feel happy.

Thanks alot to those who wished me on my birthday!
Text messages , calls and FB messages.
I spent my 17th at USS with all the awesome dearests I have .
Rides was really very thrilling .
I don't get why I never scream at all even when I'm scared.
I end up laughing till I get cramps at my back.
Ya , dont ask me why I get cramps at my back when I laugh alot , I just do.

Met up with Tresis , Andrea and Sanna!
Haha , Sanna lied that both of them are her bf ;<
Missed those time I always go recess with them .
Eating the same meals over and over again for the specific days!
They are those I sticked to like glue during my Sec3 &4 days!

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2011-06-22T01:02:00.002+08:00

I used to be organising outings for all of us .
However each time , there will always be someone who doesnt turn up.
And each time , its like that I am very disappointed.

This time round , I thought it was going to be different.
I wasn't the one organising ,
I thought everyone who meant fucking lot of me was going to turn up.

Sadly no, I got home from work , as usual I hopped to blogs as my daily rountine.
I sighed when i saw the post.
My heart really plunged when I read it.
"Again .." thats what I told myself that very moment.
If you dont want to go , why agreed in the first place.
Dont disappoint me when I'm anticipating it so much .
Especially for a occasion so important to me.
I feel unwanted you know darling..
I feel very unimportant to you too..
I thought you were ok with them , but you aren't .
It's ok.. I will get over it soon , once I have cried enough over it.

I thought everyone was good and well with each other , I never knew I was wrong , till today .
I was very very wrong...
Sorry , I didnt bothered about your feelings when i organised things.

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2011-06-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

School holidays are going to be over soon .
Been working & dancing for my past few weeks of holidays .
Now my 25th only got the competition.
Which I feels so anxious over it , guess what .
I'm always off beat & tends to start on count 1 .
So how on earth can i not get disqualified :<

Christine was like mentioning to me how lucky I am to have you doting on me.
She asked whether am I excited on my birthday .

I told her I was feeling excited but weird at the same time.
Perhaps , she doesn't know how much i cared for all of you.
That's why she dont understand how I felt.
I was kind of down after I told her everything.

These lovelies doesn't know how much they meant to me.
How much I always wanted a very close relationship between us.
Maybe I still that selfish to only want all of you to be close to me & feel lost whenever you arent
So much feeling within that i cant say because whenever I does , I feel like crying.
I'm that emotional , to cry at the slighest thing even if it seems to be nothing to others.

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2011-06-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

It sucks when all the things are being cramped together & you got no time to slot it anywhere else.
& it's worse when all your love ones are vexed together with you .
The only difference between us are we are vexed over different issues.

Indefinite story 340

2011-05-26T21:44:00.003+08:00

Time for a little update !
Though I'm suppose to be studying.

Start with a pweettyy picture of me first ! BHB la Yiling Haha :D
Monday went for K-singing with girlfriends!
Been hanging out with them much <3
Joyce is getting crazier nowadays , she used to be sooo quiet in the past . My god.

I guess I'm forever the one having hot drinks in k session!
& been getting honey water for each drink.

See how sweet my baobeis are !
What a surprising kiss I got :D
I know they love me truckloads.

It's going to be my MST next week!
So much to cover but as usual , I really don't love to study.
Been dozing off to sleep whenever I studied.
Gosh, I realised im so low on cash and all the necessities are all used up / needed to be replaced!
This is bad , very very bad.
Guess I got to work more this term break !
All my wants are pushed back until my need are being bought.
Pay day is far from me & the lousiest part of it is my pay is also minimal !

I want to get new lens for my Oly baby ! It's kind of faulty already
& its no point waiting for my 2nd brother to buy though its always him using it .
He got no income ;/
Daddy just sponsored me my new mouse . It's purple :D
The mini challenger downstairs is enough for my IT equipment !
& It got me reviewing new cameras ! Time to save up again!
New compact & DSLR please.

Dancesports is going to be my new love , I want to thank Mdm Ling so much !
The little foundation she taught me in primary school , made me be able to dance in school now!
Hopefully my 25 June will be very occupied !
Competition in the noon , performance in the night <3
It will be my best birthday present, but no high hope on it , if not I will be all disappointed again

Indefinite story 339

2011-05-23T15:57:00.004+08:00

Indefinite story 338

2011-05-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

A good rest day from work & school.
No alarms to curse at , no train to wait for , no dreadful boring lectures like Gen Ed today!
Had a nice pamper myself day .
Exfoliating dead skin, moisturising , threading .
Fresh , clean , neat , nice , fragrant .
This made me feel all so refreshed and happy girl today !

So looking forward to dancesports tomorrow and term break!
Though there's exam 2 weeks later but I dont care ! I'm a happy girl now .
I really want to take part in the competition , pretty pretty please.
Make this happen , it will be my best birthday present i ever have.
I want to make that my baby steps to regain my confidence once more.
I wanna have the WDA experiential learning at hospitality industry like seriously
but at the same time able to take part in the competition!
Awww.. this is so troubling.

I do wish that the F1 thingy will be able to be give SP, so that we can participate in it !
It's kind of a good feeling to have when you have a super enthu class waiting to participate in every single event .

Indefinite story 337

2011-04-19T20:13:00.003+08:00

I'm just updating little space of mine again.
No one's here reading but it's ok , because this space of mine is supposed to just record down my happenings through my life !
Since it started , it been through my pri 5 , 6 , sec sch & here is it , into my poly life.
I won't want to change it because i like posts to be all at the same place .

I like to be honest with myself here , dedicated things even if they wont come and read .

School was very fine but I still preferred the Hotel part compared to the Building side.
Lectures really bores me , but hope because its introduction to modules thus boring .
The only 2 thing i remembered about the 3 hour lecture today is the 1 degree building and Substructure and superstructure!
General Education is nonsense , I dont like :<
I rather stay at ABE studying!
I got a rather cool class that welcomed the new faced classmate yesterday a little too over.

At freshmen orientation when everyone got to know each other with our GLs!

Thank god I got awesome darlings with me for so many years.
Had a wonderful K with Rach , Lia & Jaime that night .

From Julia : "It doesn't matter how much time we spent together, is how much we care for each other."

Rene tells me about her happenings & still being so excited .
I just love how I can spend my time with them.
We might not see each other that often but we still love each other most.
Thank you girls ! Just way too precious to me.

So much coincidental for me & others .
Well , at least we smiled and talked and we didn't walk pass each other like strangers unlike that guy .
Thanks for being ok , even though you might not be .
I saw your expression , I understood .
We are still friends , that's what you wanted to long ago .

For that guy , I dont know how much you are suffering now ,
I know you wont like me to talk to you .
So i won't , but everytime I read your tweets , I really wondered it is me to blame?
I hope in your school , you will find someone better than me who know how to love you back.
Remembered what i sent you , love someone who is worth your love

Indefinite story 336

2011-04-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

Been seeing maroon shirt sp students around ?
It's the SP Flag Day 2011!
Been for flag day for the first time in my life.
I didn't approach people at all , all i did was like smile !
Nice experience i have to say , i learnt alot there!

There are really nice kind souls out there .
For those who donated more than once , donated notes , donated when we aren't noticing , they really did charity out from their hearts.
What touches me most is the poor donating for the poorer .
The amount doesn't matter , its the heart that counts.
It's like so wow! I don't know how to explain the feeling but it just makes people happy isn't it.

There are people who asked me this donation is for which charity organisation.
Once they know it , they will give notes . So sweet of them !
I even had a guy who asked me what amount should he donate .
I finally understood that there really nice souls in the world

Indefinite story 335

2011-04-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

全世界都能伤心，只有你不行。
你曾说明了，你很讨厌他们。
讨厌他们让你曾经失去这么多。
失去了你那高傲自大的信心
就算你自己有多好也已经是曾经了。
现在的你完全不比不上，纯粹只能当配角
你苦练多练的一切，因为你的懒散都完了。

但有谁知道我到现在一提起，我还是很痛。
我比谁都放不下，比谁都难过。
因为那时我真的放心思在里，已经练完美了。
那一天，在那一句话时我的手握紧的她的手瞬间像失了力慢慢的放开。
像失了魂，忍不住流泪
承受不住的心，就痛哭了。
那几天的我很糟，天天哭泣。
谁都不敢提那件事，但我心里但现在还是会哭。。

现在的你，只是嫉妒她们能比你好。。
你再也不是他们心中的完美。
早被取代了。。
我还是觉得我不能像以前一样了。
再也做不到了，再也跳不好了。。

Indefinite story 334

2011-04-10T21:54:00.004+08:00

Oh no..
Orientation is tomorrowwwwwwwwww..
I'm so nervous and scared of it that I keep tweeting and status update until people start telling me that everything is just going to go right .
What i'm afraid of is the moment when i get to see everyone from my course
and seeing them in clinques and I got no one .
My godddd....
Makes me wanna cry , *dislikes much *

hk 2

2011-04-03T13:25:00.003+08:00

Had mac breakfast , the grilled chicken Marconi is so much nicer than big breakfast and stuffs.
But I have to say , the Fillet in HK is so much not appetizing as the ones in sg.

Sat the cable car to visit the big big Buddha , there are 3 type of cable cars .
The standard one , the Crystal one[which the base is clear] and the luxury one .

I wanted to take the crystal one , seems pretty cool but mummy is afraid of heights.

Thus , took the standard one , the next time im going there i must take the crystal one !
Mum kept saying the buddha slimmed down -.-" When did a statue is able to slim down ?
My second brother explain the reason why [ It corroded] LOLS.

Headed off for more shopping at Mongkok & Wan zai .

Day 3
I just love eating in 茶餐厅.

It's nice and affordable. Guess what , I turned to be a very big eater at HK.
Almost every 2 hour , I want to eat something & whenever i smelled food when i'm walking
I would tell my mum , i smelled blahblahblah and i want ~ haha
Took a ferry to macau , gosh I got to say that i rather take plane than take a ferry.
So terrible ! Especially the part that I felt like puking.
& the c people's part , Grrr...
Venetian Hotel is so pretty.

Italy designers' are really good and guess what the casino there you can enter at the age of 18 .
That makes me want to visit Venice before it sinks one day !
But world is ending the next year hahaa!

HK

2011-04-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

I'm back from hongkong !
Wonderful trip i have to say , that i didnt want to come back .

Head off to HK .
Reached there &　had a great wow at the hotel i checked in .

The service there was awesome & guess what because they had no executive room anymore.
They upgraded ours to executive SUITE , i never stayed in a executive before.
Haha , kind of lousy but nice experience :D
Headed down Temple street after that .
Been to places we ate before and I have to say , Hk food tasted so much nicer than Singapore's food
Had Palm reading there with brother .
Mine wasn't that good haha , he said i got a temper like a guy , too man .
Which wasn't good , and i'm not suitable for a marriage & family life .
Thus I'm suppose to be single for my life haha !

Indefinite story 331

2011-03-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

*i'm sorry to say . but.. you have changed..
*I never expect you to change...

you're getting bolder.. idk if it's good or bad.. and yeah.. you're starting to want to be independent, in a way that making decisions for yourself and not to be under your parent's control anymore. ok.. maybe you haven't really change alot , but somehow.. I don't feel like you're still the same . maybe it's because you come out working and starting to grow more mature and stuffs.. but it's just like what i've done in the past

I cried because of this.
How could you said that I changed..?
Have you thought of my feelings?
You hadn't been in my life for such a short while and you said i changed..?
Thanks for the comments .
Everyone but you , i never had expected you said i changed so..

Indefinite story 330

2011-03-11T14:50:00.004+08:00

Gotten a rose with TeoAnAn @ the streets of orchard because it was international's women day.
Haha , we are regarded as women .

Guess what , how many times i tried wanting to hit up a conversation with you when i saw you online.
But end up , I still backspaced it .
I couldn't gather my courage to ask how had you been .
I was afraid to get cold replies or even being ignored.

Work till closing today & i have to get up super early tomorrow .
Goshhhhh, I dislike this very much . Hopefully tomorrow will be a good one.
I don't like the pressure on me , its like "Urgh ! Damn it " feeling .
After performance , I'm dragging my lovely brother to IT show even though I got nothing to buy.

No harm looking at the latest gadgets right , I had been so outdated recently :<
But the most sickening thing to do is to go have fun & I got to go back to dance .
Darwin got a tablet which seems cool to me .
I rather want a newer phone first , my dear lollipop is dying on me .
* Dislikes*

My pay came but it just all went *poofs* because of my hongkong trip
& my new lappy that i want to get for my poly.
Rene suggested a lappy which she bought , oh my ..
It's pretty[Brown] & light but its not going to be selling in SP ! >:

"我最想看到的就是你幸福的笑容"

Indefinite story 329

2011-03-09T15:08:00.002+08:00

Life just goes on day by day.
Hongkong trip is coming which also indicates that Poly is going to start soon.
Pretty excited for poly life, but i'm still not willing to join CCAs.
Jaime told me to join cheerleading , oh my , I don't have the stamina to do so.
Definitely no sports , no oh so boring cca for me .
Dance? I don't like to go for auditions.

This Saturday dance performance is indeed a little pressurizing ,which i didn't like it at all.

Indefinite story 328

2011-02-20T01:33:00.004+08:00

With my dearest sisters.

Hongkong trip soon , like finally.
Really glad that its a confirmed trip.
I will definitely enjoy it before school starts for me .
A brand new life in poly with strangers, people whom I dont know at all.
I wonder how can i adapt to life there, I don't like to mix & people will start talking about my attitude again.

Saying about attitude , I just happened to know that recently I haven't left a good impression on others . Thus making those others dislike my attitude and badmouthed about me.
But its fair because I don't like you guys either .
Most importantly, i won't act that i'm on good terms with you too.
I always been living on this fact that if i dont like you at all, its just written on my face.
If people asked me about this , I won't hide because I don't see the point to hide it too.
You meant nothing to me either , I won't lose anything too.
People have been disliking me & I'm used to it .
I not those friendly,lovable,sweet,adorable type of girl .

I suppose I will be leaving soon too , so those people should be glad .
I'm here for only a short time , I won't disrupted their usual life there .
She's staying I suppose & I believe she will be all fine with everyone looking after her :D
Life there will be back to normal as my existence doesn't make any big difference too

Dance today was tiring but it still brightens up my day.
A fruitful day today.

Indefinite story 327

2011-02-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

Life's has been confusing which I didn't like it at all.
Luckily I still have darling with me .
I missed all my lovelies, 4B , West Spring , practically everything .
If I could just go through my secondary life for just another week , that will be fun.
Eating the same thing in the same routine daily .
I guess almost every students missed that don't they?
I missed complaining to my classmates that I'm hungry all the time in class.
Haha , well its just good memories aren't they?

Indefinite story 326

2011-02-02T01:09:00.003+08:00

Steamboat with colleagues.

Work that's all about my life recently.
Nothing interesting too .
I don't know what gotten into me , I have been very careless during work these days.
Having unknown cuts which doesn't hurt & stupidly hurting myself in any single idiot way.
& some people just choose to ignore me , I tried talking but you just ignored me .

Weather had been freezing cold , for people like me who is super afraid of cold.
After today , I came to a question.
All these while , I have been sacrificing for others but when I needed them , will there be someone to help me out too?
I told my brother about this too, he said i was too soft-hearted , i felt the same way too.
But I just couldn't help it when I see my love ones needed help from me.

I wouldn't be touching sciences anymore due to the course I was given for JAE.
That's a pretty sad thing for me especially when I can no longer listen to my favourite science lessons , Biology to be specific.

还是你在我最任性时，最体谅最了解我。
现在的你，还好吧..?

Chinese new year is coming tomorrow, pretty excited for it this year which I don't know why too.
Dolling up for visiting , guess that's the reason that I excited for especially i got the new pieces i love!
I'm going to take alot of photos this new year.
Olyp-baby is going to go out with us this year , Please work well.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL !

Indefinite story 325

2011-01-16T23:22:00.004+08:00

I have all the rights to cry in the world now.
Now you all are glad that i finally left him isn't it?
I won't hide if I'm crying because i'm upset/missing him.
How am I suppose to let my love go so easily especially when its been so long.
I know hiding from you all , its my fault but still we had been together for so long..
I know you will tell me , oh i still young , i shouldn't fall in love yet and i dont know what in earth is love. But I have to say , now i fallen into one , so i can't track back time either.
Now we are on our separate ways , I guess i got my rights to be upset isn't it..

Indefinite story 2

2011-01-01T15:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2011 EVERYBODY! :D
Ytd was pretty enjoyable.
Waraku for dinner.
Anling and family was late . Haha.
Well , I'm the customer for the day ! Not bad , there's still staff discount.
*Andy just called me ! Said that I can start working full shift next week , onwards.
But lazy me told him , only work 2 full shift days . The rest still 4 hours please :D
At first wanted to head to clarke quay changed of plan , we went scape.
But we didn't enter the party , cause we found it not worth it when we go in and just dance .
Swensens instead, we hear no people counting down! :<
End up , when its 2011, we just went happy new year~!
Haha.

Going to Jp with julia soon , because i'm complaining its bored here~!

Indefinite story 323

2010-12-23T15:26:00.001+08:00

Hi Everybody~!
Haha , Let's just update a little what had happened in my life and what's going to happen soon :D
Xmas Eve , spent my night with my lovely lovely Rach .
She is a lost girl at Exit B & I'm at Exit C.
When she told me the guards stared at her and she stared back , that part was funny . Haha
Xmas was quite no fun , unless you do love foam.
Because Singapore has no snow , that's the reason why they played with foam.
Trend for foam spraying was Guys sprayed at Bangalas, Bangalas sprayed at girls, girls sprayed at everyone .
Conclusion it was boring.

Had dinner with Sanna wee today,
Gossiped much , understood things too.
So much shocking things isn't it ?
Most imptly, I repeating things until she's sick of hearing it.
Remember uh , before results must go out one hor!

Tomorrow will be snipping day , i hope it turn out good.
And Shopping with mummy.
Saturday A brand new day with my most loved darlings
Rene has work at night but at least finally she can make it in the noon!

Indefinite story 322

2010-12-19T00:23:00.002+08:00

The more I saw your tweets , your posts in facebook.
I felt upset. All of your friends who told you to cheer up , makes me feel even hurt too..
Darling , I don't know what happen.
I know contacting you is useless , because you wont say .
If you are a little better in mood , you would just tell everyone you are fine , no worries.
I don't know who you are willing to contact now.
But I hope I can be there for you.
I want to share your sadness , I want to help you out of this shadow.
I just hope you see this and is willing to look for me when you need someone.
Aren't we sisters after all...
You told me I was your closest sister..
I told you once , when everyone walks out of your life , i'm always walking in , being there for you.
But you never came to me whenever you are down..
You made me felt useless .. Really.
You knew how worried & upset i will get whenever things got bad for you..
I read the letter you wrote me when i was upset this year.
Do you still remember...?
& I cried very badly after reading this.
The content you wrote for me , are the exactly things i want to tell you too.
"You know me love you best :D"

Indefinite story 321

2010-12-10T19:13:00.002+08:00

Yiling's want to go for a holiday too.
Hongkong and Taiwan are always tempting me to go there .
Perhaps I was too young that time to enjoy life there .
Now I'm slightly older , I wish to go there and play .
Most importantly, shop!
BUT , the amount I'm earning right now is perfectly not enough for me to pay for a holiday :<
How?!

Indefinite life 320 [Prom]

2010-11-25T13:58:00.002+08:00

Prom @ Hilton rocks totally!
So many handsome dudes and hot chicks.
Some were so gorgeous , and looked totally different.
I had much fun last night but I missed alot of photo taking with people =[
But nevermind , that night will be in my heart for life.
I love you guys . The best thing West Spring gave us was that night.
Clubbing at the end of prom was totally fabulous , I never hoped it ended.
I danced as if I was high on alcohol .
Dance floor with everyone , I miss you guys .
Though i didn't know who the hell i dragged into the dance floor.
Natalie , Rach , Judith , Clement , Kevin , Nadira ,were all so awesome on the dance floor.
Love acting like a drunkard outside Hilton with Natalie Tan !
Amazing me had no aches on my feet even I was jumping like mad on my heels.
Who cares about unglam-ness at that point of time!
When they played , Just the way you are after clubbing .
I was singing like nobody business . HAHAHA.
Most wonderful night spent.
If only we could all continue playing out there !

I LOVE YOU GUYS ~ Misses

Indefinite story 319

2010-11-22T01:14:00.002+08:00

I realised after that , she started to come here more often .
Which I didn't like it alot . I got nothing to do with that person.
Just friends , more to brother and sister . Nothing else.
Whatever in the past is left in the past
If you don't trust me , at least you should trust him isn't it?
For so long , don't tell me that you don't trust him for this?
He is true towards you and I won't steal him from you for sure

Indefinite story 318

2010-11-18T20:21:00.002+08:00

One of the best things in life is to have best friends with you for years.
No matter how long you never had not met each other , how long you didn't contact one another.
The friendship never changes, never faded.
Friends that are with you for years , they know you inside out .
They know the next thing you are going to do or say.
It's amazing.

Indefinite story 317

2010-11-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

Because i was in heels , i was ultra tall compared to him =]

So being a lovely , squat down lor~

O is awesomely over. Gotten my prom dress.
Tomorrow accessorizes if possible.
Too lazy to blog or should i say i'm have nothing to blog at all

Indefinite story 316

2010-08-09T21:16:00.002+08:00

It's really cool to own 2 cameras at the same time.
Though it really cost a bomb but thank you mummy =]
And yes ! Daddy got tickets to yog opening & I'm going
Thought very sad to say , we cant record that.
Prelim 2 is coming & I need alot more time to prepare for it.
Olevel is so so so near now and I'm really kind of afraid of it.
Hope everything's is fine.
Update soon !
I'm excited for the YOG torch relay in my school too!

Indefinite story 315

2010-07-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

Its the first week of school reopen but it felt like a month had past.
Well , time is precious now but i'm still here being hooked up by my lovely lappy.
At least i'm done with globalization today & perhaps half of Treaty of Versailles by the time i sleep.
I ate alot during dinner today , maybe that will make me gain weight .
Thats very sad for some people to know =]
Life is pretty boring right now , study , art and a little dancing thats all.
I'm so not going to touch art after o'level anymore.
Just let the skill rot away or what so ever.

Why are people getting so unhappy nowadays?
Dear lovelys , be a happy person .
You don't owe others a living except for your parents.
Cheer up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still so into oldies . They are just so much more nicer and meaningful.

你永遠不懂我傷悲　像白天不懂夜的黑
像永恆燃燒的太陽　不懂那月亮的盈缺

Indefinite storry 314

2010-06-25T23:39:00.002+08:00

Went k with sisters for my advance birthday celebration.
Was terribly unwell but its like miracle when I stepped in and they started to sing happy birthday song and with that small lovely cake they make.
I was surprised and really thank them for the effort to try making it a successful one.
Thanks again lovely girls !
The presents you girls gave , i really like it alot .
Thanks again ! =]

Indefinite storry 313

2010-06-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

Oh come on Yiling , just admit your June holidays sucks totally.
Art students spent most of their time on art.
Though we made progress but I'm afraid I will lose out on my academic subjects.
It's like at home after a long , i just want to rest and nothing else.
At home , I can't do my art at all , no atmosphere to motivate myself.
To study my lovely sciences can kill me , cause nothing goes in .
HOW?! I want to do well on my prelims , olevel and this come mock test on chemistry.
I dont want to disappoint Mr Seah .

On a side note , my life is really boring nowadays except the part when we go k singing
Hitting the high notes and end up laughing like mad.
& today , that Serene Ng did scared the hell out of me when she jumped out from nowhere and appear infront of me !

=.= They got me addicted to the song Parachute !

Indefinite story 312 Show's gig 2010 =]

2010-05-23T21:24:00.002+08:00

罗志祥舞法舞天新加坡演唱會好看惨了!♥
Even before the show started, I was damn nervous for show.
When lights are out , everyone got so excited and started screaming
Dance soul came out first and tata! Show rised up .
I'm lazy to give details.
But overall, its really a great gig ! AWESOMELY FABULOUS I SWEAR.
If show had his gig cheaper and more times I bet alot of us will be able to go for it right? =]
Everyone just love SHOW ! ♥♥♥♥

只要小猪在台上，整个舞台都属于他。
他真的有这个能耐。
罗志祥好好照顾身体，要继续加油。
你永远都有我们粉丝为你撑腰!

Of course thanks to my mummy for buying me his tickets and accompany to watch it .
And bought his stuffs for me !

Indefinite story 311

2010-04-30T22:55:00.003+08:00

Prelim 1 is over.
Sometimes I found myself amazing to react a different manner than what I supposed to .
I might look pretty insane like now but no one feels alright when the results are back.
I just realised I can never make it to Biomedical if I continue studying like this ...
Art is a time-killer .
Humanities are memory-killer.
Sciences are life-killer.
Mathematics are skills-killer.
Languages are law-killer
In all , they are serial killer to students..
I can't afford to not study real hard if i really want to get into biomedic.
I'm going to use tomorrow to do my art . Sunday and Monday for notes and homeworks.

I do hope that I can score an a1 for mother tongue , it been the first time I did studied for MT .
I don't want to waste any time in retaking it !

Somehow I don't look forward to the motivation talk anymore due to VP.
I don't like what she emphasize on.
I don't like the bias-ness the school give .
Ok , perhaps I should say , everyone is bias instead.

I did felt nervous for next week ballet exam.
Last ballet examination , I don't think I am going to continue anymore .
It's rather sad to end something you used to work for every year.
But nevertheless , I'm still going to love dance the way I always do !

No matter how I grumble whenever teacher ask us to perform , I'm really not used to not perform at least once a month? Haha .
Just now during dance practice , I felt like doing a dance concert .
I want to perform in a full concert .
But we don't have enough performers , enough time , enough dances for a concert.
What to do...?
We are ending O'level this year .
But Linn is having A'level next year .
Its been 3 years we had performed together in a concert.

Upcoming performances
This coming sunday [May 2]
June 2 [SV 20th anniversary]
June 22

Indefinite story 310

2010-04-25T13:17:00.002+08:00

Being sick isn't good at all.
Fever going up and down .
& now I dont have fever anymore here come the super irritating headache that drive me crazy .
I cant concentrate on anything now . Homeworks , studies or whatsoever .
Damn .
I cant do art with such a massive killer headache .
=[

& I do hope both of them are going to have their problems resolve .
I dont like us being all separated .
I don't have the energy to understand what is happening between both of you too .
Being ill took all my strength away .

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2010-04-01T21:54:00.004+08:00

April's fool day .
I don't find any fun about it . Hahs , I'm not those enthu people uh .

West Spring Band , to watch your performance today .
You guys deserve all the cheering and applause .
I found today's performance for the school was really fabulous .
Continue to strive for the gold !
10 more days , the actual day will soon be reaching in no time .
Work even harder , it's the last lap.
I felt like tearing when I watched you guys performance , it felt as if I was there performing with you guys as a A-team member .
WEST SPRING MILITARY BAND , good luck everyone !
With Pride , We Strike [ I still remember that =D ]
Strive with your best & you'll never regret .

I studied from 8am in the morning all the way till night 9.15pm .
How great I was , like superwoman already lor .
Hahs

& yes , I got to say .
I still love Mdm Hartati the most , for biology and for her mac's treat to the whole class today !
The whole treat was $120 , how wonderful .

Today's bio class was like joke only la , the whole class was like full of wild imagination .
How fun , 4B does have good wild imagination . Hehs.

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2010-03-28T11:02:00.002+08:00

In my dream ,I tore up my dance cert issue from by the school infront of Principal and teachers.
This dream made me realised I haven't gotten over the results .
Maybe many had got over it , I didn't.
I having a over high ego .
That's why whenever I see others doing better than me , I detest it .
It made me detest dance for months , but it made me hated my school cca .
Those close to me , know why that I dislike my cca after last year's syf.
I dare to admit I really dislike my cca , even if you teachers ask me why .
I will tell you the reason why.

And even if the principal ask me why , I won't deny .

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2010-03-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

Extracted from : http://demureurchin.blogspot.com/

Give me your hand & I'll hook it with mine! @2010, March 25th.

The girl I miss a lot. The girl that I've, once drifted apart from, fight with, quarrel with, hugged, kissed, held hands with, spent the highest & lowest point of my time with, poured out all my problems to, doubted, trusted to the highest point, cried to, vent my anger at, dream of, shared almost everything with, gone ultra crazy with, done retard things with, supported. The girl that knows me deep down. The girl who has walked with me for a perfect ten years. The girl that will always been in my heart even when I'm heaving my last breathe. I love you & you know I do. ^^

xx
10:55 PM

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Even after so long , our relationship still stay strong .
I don't call us friends anymore , because you are much more of my sister .

Who says best friends doesn't leave one another .
Yes , she did left me before . 5 years ago in 2005 .
From being a little kid studying 6 years in primary school , grown up and graduated .
Left for different secondary schools.
It's the tenth year we know each other .
Many things happened in these 10 years.
We bear grudges , had fun , laughed like no one was around , grumbled as if everyone owes you .
Friends come and go but I found out those who are true .

I still remember the reasons why people left me during '05 .
They said I was arrogant , stubborn , bitchy , flirtatious & acted as if I am the boss
Those once hurt me , I will always remember .
They aren't wrong to say that because I really am .
I haven't change for the past 5 years .
I didn't.
And because of those in '05 , I learnt to never trust friends again .

And till now , how many I can count as true friends .
Serene , Anling , Kanglong , Eugene. The past 10 years , they had been always true.
These 4 aren't friends to me , I count them as my sisters and brothers.

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2010-03-22T20:56:00.002+08:00

First day of school .
Awww... No breakfast cause mummy isn't up.
Its so sad to get up and see the rest of your family sleeping soundly especially in the cooling weather in the morning .
Busy disturbing people with I'm hungry etc.
Reached school and ate egg tart with milo .
At least it can last me for quite awhile before recess .
Andrea Sng is so freaking bias .
She only love Lau Yanling more than us threesome la !
Tresis and Sanna , we shall be more loving and left her to Yanling then =D

Volunteered to help out the marathon , seems fun =]
11 april .
I want to go support the band in SYF !
10 april .
The last examination I will take for ballet .
At least a distinction this year , pretty please? Stop giving me strict examiners ~.
And ensure that I dont panic.
7 May .

School isnt great , cause classrooms are dusty due to days of not using them .
Make me sneeze only .
So what if curriculum time ends at 2.10 .
We still have structured remedial[s] till 4.45 !
That's not a good thing .
Come on , school . I rather have lesson till 3.35 .

Miss Joyce is going nuts to see us lovely art students for 4 out of 5 weekdays .
Hahs . Art students , be happy ~ . We are starting on our lovely final piece .
Teehees.

I finally understood why people dreaded to do SS.
And why their pen inks runs out .
The last essay sucks like hell -.- So many factors.
And yeah, our teacher don't expect us to do only 3 factor like olevel.
We are suppose to do all the factors for homeworks .

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2010-03-15T21:08:00.003+08:00

I was panicking when I left home at 12.10 .
I was like die la die la , confirm will late de lor .
But haha , I reached school at 12.35.
Tresis was rushing me , then i told her if she rush me i will panic one .
So she ask me to crawl to school. And she questioned me why didn't i crawl to school.
ANDREA SNG ! See la , your lover bully me la !

Fine , I am really stressed in doing my SPA today.
But , I guess everything went fine .
The advantage of having to cut 2 potato chips into strips at a go , save me alot of time.
I just didn't managed to get a graph with all the points plotted.
And I forgotten to write the title =[

After SPA , was with Judith to wait for the rain to stop.
At first we were just talking and eating .
End up we were playing her itouch .
I kept saying parallax error whenever I missed alot .
Finding excuses for myself only haha.

Taptap can get very addictive .
Mummy~~~ Buy me Itouch ~~~
I know you will see this =D

Home and was blogshop hopping .
And here I am so tempted to buy alot alot of things.
Clothes , shoes , bags, Itouch , DSLR , Compact camera and wallet~
I dont like my current wallet.

For the next few days , there goes Miss Joyce , nagging at all of the art students .
How sad . No holidays , no time to go shopping !
SHOPPING PLEASE , TIME TIME TIME !

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2010-03-08T20:57:00.002+08:00

Beautiful isn't it !
Yu laoshi's new place

My awesome daddy . I love you so so much
Hahs , I know mummy will be jealous .
So I got to say .
I love you so so much too mummy =D

HERE COME MY AWESOME BABY ! =D

Isnt it adorable ?!
So lovely .
I so so in love with baby ! =D

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2010-03-04T18:13:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Andrea Sng ! =D

Shall keep it short , since whatever I want to say , I have told her before already.
I said that I will post this .

Andrea just announced her dream boyfriend-to-be.
Its a big big combination I have to say.
Her dream boyfriend have to be like:

Ben that height .
JustinHan that white
JustinLim that humor
Bernard that hardworking
Daniel that shameless
Zhenkang that blurblur
Henry that good listener
Noel that volleyballer
Keith that badminton player
YuZheng that funny face.
/Edited
Must be as caring as Yiling
Give her a hug everyday like Yanling.
Must be as irritating as Weirong sometimes.
Must be like Tresis that always make her smile.
As gentleman as Ryan.
As funny as Peng guang
As understanding as Natalie.
Have huisi's laughter.
Gina's mature-ness.
As skinny as Andrew

Anyone with all of the above kindly ,
please go and find andrea to be her boyfriend
Haha! =D

Andrea, 笑 } says:
*LOL!
*my ideal boyfriend!!!!

Andrea ! Rmb to post your reply to xin bu liao qing uh .

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2010-03-02T19:12:00.002+08:00

I like this .

You have to put in many, many, many tiny efforts that nobody sees or appreciates before you achieve anything worthwhile. ; By Brian Tracy

Rather satisfied with my results till now .
Havent failed a subject till now.
But I'm rather worried that I will flunk my Sci[P/C]
Earn a pizza hut treat since I gotten a A1 for my maths by Sanna .
If I managed to pass all my subjects , Im going to bug mama to buy me my DSLR !
Thats what she said beforehand .

Those who didnt do well , I know its rather irritating when you studied real hard
and teachers said you didnt do well because you didnt study enough .
But try harder . We are working towards the O .
CT is just school internal exam .

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2010-02-27T17:39:00.002+08:00

Common Test is over but it doesnt mean that O level are over .
I was rather surprise , seeing everyone like mugging for a CT1 paper , which most of us usually heck care about it .
I wasn't confident for some papers , but fine , I DID studied ok..
CIP today , I woke up feeling so unwell.
Had muscles ache due to ytd's dance practice .
I felt giddy , you can actually see me banging into alot of things while walking .
I can't walk straight at all.
I felt like vomiting , but i still left home for cip.

Performance was cool haha! Still cant get over with it =D.
Still gaga-ing over it . Too shuai liao la ~ =DDD
Adam , Yuzheng , Sanna , Yanzhou and I was in the same group .
I did almost like nothing except passing the flyers to yanzhou for short explanation .
I realised that their apartments was rather big .
I like big big houses ! =DDD.
Looking down from 26 - 30 floors all seemed so scary, Yuzheng was really a joke ok .
His actions are hilarious & Adam look smart in Yanzhou's tie hahs!
Shall end typing , I realised I hated posting but I like looking at new posts in my blog -.-
Crazy girl.

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2010-02-15T20:50:00.004+08:00

Daddy's Valentine Rose for me . How sweet ~

I'm a happy girl to see him in my room . First person I see in the morning =D
Thanks teenage!

My lovely lovely family.

Family + My aunt . MY BIG FAMILY [ That's what we 3 children says]
You wont understand unless you ask me about my family tree =D
New year Eve was pretty fine.
No world war.
Bill was a bomb . First time a 4 digit meal bill.
Oh ya , I forgotten to mention that my big brother gotten a V-Cam as birthday present by aunt.

First day of new year was fine too .
Daddy's sisters' place , we went to house to watch shows while mummy chats with them .
How weird uh, daddy's sister and family . end up my mum talking . we watch tv.

I'm intending to get a cheongsam next year for new year !

Second day of new year .
No world wars too !
This year quite not bad uh, peace.
Haha . Nothing much to post either .
My new year is always not that fun either =]
No photos for today.
Didn't take .

Tomorrow friends visiting , inclusive of my own house.

Have been saving up for tons for gadgets that I always wanted.
- LG lollipop . Even though its not a smart phone but still , I love that phone tons . I'm buying it with my own money , not parents money this time.
- Itouch
- DSLR / Nikon Compact camera . [ It's still what I want most ] Of course I cant buy the whole camera with my own capabilities , but I'm saving up . Buying it with part of my money , brother + parents.

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2010-02-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

Valentine gift from Anita , Geraldine , Shirleen , Judy ,Charmaine and Sonia . Thanks alot then ! =]
I'm was really hyper during the CNY performances .
Screamed almost for events . Well , for the mood eh!
Shall do some good posting for CNY
So HAPPY CNY AND VALENTINE'S DAY in advance! =]

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2010-01-27T20:06:00.002+08:00

I really don't get why they want to push the o level as soon as possible each year.
It make the students having less time to learn their syllabus and revision..
Ever since the first day of sec 4 , homeworks are our daily life .
Never ending , today you just finished a hell lot of work , next day , they come in fresh again .

Playing are like uh - no no , *time to do your homework*
Ever if you slept early , the next day you went to school energize but end up tired again when you had so many hours of study , you are like practically drained out of energy
It's like URGH! Damn it .
I felt like cursing and swearing and whatever I can do .
Study and study ..

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2010-01-24T11:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a great day .
Went to watch Men in tutu with Linn , Joyce and Shuyi .
It was really awesome man ! Very hilarious .
Shall post up photos when I received them.
Managed to take photos with them .
But didn't managed to take with that very funny guy.

& I'm a happy girl now !
LG GD580 (Lollipop) is finally out in Singapore !
Scream people ! =] The model was like superb cute la .
I went gaga over that phone at marina square yesterday.
But why is the pink the only available colour !!!! Where is blue ~~
Can they come out with purple ? Pretty please

Back to history research again

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2010-01-18T07:18:00.002+08:00

I woke up terribly .
Once I was up , I just started crying and crying .
I was so afraid that was true , I went to check on him , hoping he was perfectly fine.
I wanted someone to accompany me , someone to give me comfort .
I rang you up , but your phone wasn't switched on .
Even how much I wanted someone in my family to wake up and comfort me ,
I didn't want to disturb them . I didn't want to sleep anymore .
I brought stitch out to the living room with me and dazed.
To prevent me from thinking somemore , I walked rounds and round in my home .
It was only 5am & I decided not to sleep , I didn't want to continue that nightmare at all.
I just kept crying .
Never that nightmare is coming true .
Daddy , take care of yourself ok .
You really must . Bless for daddy , he will be fine and healthy.

I never cried so much because of a nightmare before..

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2010-01-15T09:10:00.002+08:00

It's 15 Jan today . Which means LZX's 罗生门 is out !
Hahaha! =D

I'm not in school today , skipped a number of important lessons to me .
Teehee ~ . It's not truancy , its not on mc .
I slept till I'm awake now .
Shall bring some works there later , just in case the waiting time is super long

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2010-01-09T13:07:00.003+08:00

School is been pretty busy for secs 4 even since it started.
Ever since the first day of school , homeworks are like non-stop music hits .
So its like you won't have the time at all to play and slack.
Of course , you will have the time provided you don't do your work at all.
& I'm so pretty proud of myself to be able to stay awake and listen to class.
I did my works well all the subjects except for Chinese .
That homework is a 2009 holiday homework ok .
Not this year's homework.

Sanna , Tresis have been nagging every single time in during my meals.
This cannot eat that cannot eat , even when I wanted to grab a tiny little snack from others.
Sanna will go : 'Whoever the person name it is' , don't give Yiling , she cannot eat.
Then I will pouts whenever she says that.
She is repeating everything I did to her when she is sick.
But nevermind she meant good .
At least she bought me tidbits yesterday! =]

I really want to aim for SP and change whatever idea I used to have to get into the other poly.
Lifesciences in prior , then media , tourism , infocomm. Teehees =]

&&& I slimmed another 2 kg , of course I know I'm underweight like that but I really don't like 50+ kg . It makes me feel fat .
Someone tell me do I really look too slim for my age?
Huanghuang said I'm way too slim , then cheaky and rachel is just right !
But I have been eating alot since holidays.
Its been 3 years ever I stop growing in height ! =[[[
1 more cm also cannot , but never mind then , I'm learning how to satisfy with 167.

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2010-01-01T18:40:00.008+08:00

Today is 1st January 2010 .
I convinced myself its going to be a great year.
& yesterday night , I was pretty lame .
I went to write on post-its' [2010 !] then pasted it on around in my home.

31st December of 2009
Last day of 2009
With ladies , for lunch , movie and ktv .
I was like ultimately high , I guess only them had seen me such crazily before.
They weren't hyper with me =[
Rach went so gaga over Junzhi's smile again -.-
Jaime & Kelly keep messaging , that made me keep on oi oi oi .
Rene isn't able to come . Well...

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2009-12-31T00:17:00.002+08:00

New Year Resolutions & Wishes.

1] My family come first in priority , Good health for all of them
Hopefully there isn't any quarrels when we go for visits during CNY
Though its highly impossible , if there is really no quarrrels at all .
Lottery confirm strike.
I'm serious ok , every year whenever they see each other , confirm 100% will argue one .

2] To just get the grade for ballet examination .
Then 1 whole year , I won't be having ballet lessons =[
Though during the Saturdays class , I'm still having lesson.

3] My big big wish for 2010, is of course the Stupid stupid GCE O'lvl
9 points , I really wonder how i'm actually going to get it .
Well , Just like everyone would say , STUDY !
Just imagine next year , Sanna will scold me for not attempting to do any maths question.
Ok , my resolution is to study , that includes doing homeworks!
So I will get less scoldings !

4] I attempt to be a good good girl next year .
I might be friendlier ! Who knows ~

5] It will be a great great year next year , pretty please ! =D
No more 2009 .
Everyone will be happier ! No more sad sad stuffs , more joyful things/events.

I'm going out , going out , going out .
Will be back with photos ,photos, photos.
I want pretty pretty photos .
I want a pretty pretty 2010.

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2009-12-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty upset right now .
Just found out if I wanted to study the course I want like Bio-related course
I got to get like bloody 9/12 points?
Interior Design at SP , 17 points.
That really a hard score to get .
Sigh sigh -.-

Sometimes , I felt that I'm the only one who is clinging on to this abandon friendship all of us have together.
Perhaps both of you already forgotten the existence of me until I talked to you again.

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2009-12-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Lolly's Camera was so awesome !
It's really cool .
Okok , girl dont be so greedy . Aim for your DSLR first .

Its this cool?
I like the modes

http://www.samsung.com/sg/consumer/camera-camcorder/digital-still-camera/archive/EC-NV24HBBB/AS/index.idx?pagetype=prd_detail

Dinner with her at Plaza .
She was complaining a hell lot of a junior of hers hahs.

We walked back to Lot one , I'm so proud of myself.
First time hehs , last time there is still someone who wanted me to walk back , but end up we took bus when we reached teckwhye.
Teckwhye in the night is pretty eerie I have to say.

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2009-12-25T01:06:00.003+08:00

Yipee! Christmas its here .
Just like what you know , I'm not celebrating Christmas .
But just I'm so happy about 2009 going to be over soon
& here come 2010.
Though 2010 will be a tough year , but as long as its going to be a new start , a good year.
Who cares ! =D

I just had macs for 'Christmas celebration' Hahaha.
31 december ! =DD

Performance on 26 , stupid stupid organizer why so last minute?!
Spanish will do ma ! Why must specifically want that ballet too .
People can't be greedy one right .
Just kidding .
Guess its the last performance I doing before O'level.
Well , studies come first after all.

/Edited.
To Ryan & Andrea .
I said I will be a good girl next year .
I won't scold vulgarties & smacking anyone on 4th Jan .
If not , Starbucks the most expensive one for Ryan , Greentea for Andrea.
& I didn't said , I will not scold or smack anyone for the rest of the year.
Hahs , new year resolutions will be posted very soon for my end of year post !

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2009-12-23T21:11:00.003+08:00

Christmas eve is tomorrow which means Christmas is coming and 2009 is ending !! =D
I'm not excited about Christmas at all , but I'm glad this year is coming to an end .
Today woke up late but at least not later than Andrea Sng.
Hahs , she claimed that her presents for people were like alot .
So I imagined it was alot of big plastic bags , end up it was only in 1 plastic bag .
How crap that was uh .
Sec 1 reported to school today .
Wow , which means we are Sec 4's already . Hahs .
Shalln't talk bad about school , I'm a good student .
Lesson was boring -.- I was practically staring in blank.

Sigh , was supposingly going to Flea with Rene but she wasn't in the mood .
Nevermind then , GIRLS ! 31 december ! =D

Shall skip till back home and out with Mum .
Since Rachy is ending her job tomorrow , and I said once I would go there .
After like 1 month and dont know how many days , I finally went there .
Surprise huh . Hahs =D
Then went to Orchard Road , it was quite crappy at there with mum .
Orchard Road is somewhere I couldn't afford to buy stuffs , its just a place for me to spend my day.
I bought 2 more cuties back home . I'm so happy about it !

I guess I'm bringing them to school with me next year .

Can someone explain to me why people buy branded stuffs?
I really don't get it .
When sometimes branded goods gives you the same quality as pasar malam , why spending so much on just getting a top or bottom?
I'm not those who buy branded stuffs due to 2 reasons .
1st : I don't see the point on buying , when the price is expensive just due to the brand.
2nd : I don't have that much to spend either .
I dont want to buy something that is so expensive that days after I had to scrimp and save for.

If you are telling me buying branded goods , is the only way for STYLE/FASHION/TREND.
Hahaha . Well perhaps so , to what you think .
Then why does many people is able bring out fashion just through basic tops and tanks yet in the budget?

Oh , there is still a last point on why people buy branded .
Because they are too wealthy and had to spend off what they can .
Maybe the high income family will have such good stuffs then .
But , truly how many people are really capable of spending money off what they earn?
There are so many people having credit cards , end up with a bomb every month .

I was rather lame yesterday , I burned candles just for fun .

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2009-12-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

Today , was feeling terribly unwell .
Did homeworks .
Went out at night to buy presents.
Bought for quite a number of people .
I want christmas presents too ! Hahs .
Nevermind , its a festive to give .

Thats all for today , tml going sch for ss , then out the whole day for bbq !
Hopefully , I wont be lazy tml and it will be fun time tml.

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2009-12-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hahs , i bet those who read my tweets would have know about this
About emo , elmo and momo -.-
Let's have some good elaboration on this.
I forgotten why my mum started to say I'm emo
I know she just kept saying that my aunt said I'm at the beginning stage of emo people
Just not those who are serious who mutilate themselves.
Yes , of course those who know me .
Please fill in the blank yourself on what I would say
[ I'm not ... ! ]

After that emo thing , my mum started to call me elmo .
Then sang the Elmo song but she only know how to la hahahaha !
So she went La la la la la la ~ . [ Ok i know its lame ]
Then After lalalala , she went momomomomo~
Thats when the momo thing came
She started to call me momo and wants to buy me a elmo to remind Im emo
How rhymes !
=.="

I was like driven crazy by her,I swear.
Once I reached home , I started screaming and ahh-ing like nobody business .

=[ I got a short fringe and 2 inches of my hair just went away . =[[[[
2 Inches is alot ok !
And can someone tell me why is everyone calling me to cut my hair short?

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2009-12-14T17:31:00.005+08:00

Went for Love Thyself course on last saturday and sunday.
It was really an awesome course I have to say.
After so many years of persuading to go for different courses [Quantum Touch, Silva Method]
I went for this Love Thyself , Its a self - love program.
To free , find and know who you are , Finding the purpose in this lifetime.

This course isn't just techniques wise , it also cultivate you into a better person.
Of course , it doesn't mean that you once attend it , you will definitely become a better person .
You have to constant remind yourself on being not being a egoself
and practice connection with the universe.
Yes , alot of you out there might not believe in all these , mediation , reiki , angels , whatever that can help us spiritually.
But as long as you believe in it , it will be there for you .

Its a 2 whole day course , but its something weird from this and academic lessons.
You dont get to feel like you want to sleep at all in the class.
Unlike in school , many of us just sleep in class.
Every 2 hours or 2 and a half , its is always a meal or tea break=]
Thats what I like about it too . Hehs. Say me greedy or what but food are really great.
Mediation , Practices in class , even if you drift off, its actually ok
because lecturer is working with our sub-conscious .

Nancy Ho , my lecturer & of course my aunt =]

Nope , Im not a Nancy wannabe , Just trying to be a fake lecturer for the day!

Sunday we even went to Botanics Garden to mediate.
Though I detest outdoor , with those insects and bees! .
Its really a different feeling to mediate indoor and outdoor.
You feel more connective to nature or universe.
Even the construction sounds suddenly dont disturb you at all.
I was really really tired that day , but back at the office / lecture room.
You just feel energetic after every practice you do.
After the course end , went with mum , aunt and boon to One Fullerton
That Japanese restaurant .
Tsuki-Bar after that .
I didnt drink ok =] Hahs like magic i know.

Breakfast , but it was hell expensive at Botanics garden

Mediation

Mummy & May

Links to Nancy Ho Academy & her courses
www.lovethyselfcoaching.com
www.SilvaMethod.com.sg
www.hypnosiscenter.com.sg
www.quantumtouch.com.sg

If you can , seriously attend it .
It helps .

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2009-12-07T17:39:00.003+08:00

Been watching 下一站，幸福 ; 海派甜心 ; 桃花小妹 ; 爱就宅一起
下一站，幸福 ; 海派甜心 , really worth the watch .
爱就宅一起 , Jiro's mumu , is adorable .
If that was stitch I would love it so much .
I want a large large plushie.

要诚实做自己

Mama said she is going to bring me for checkup tomorrow .
Well , tomorrow then .
Aunty Nancy is super surprised that I would want to go for her course like so willingly after so many years that she wanted me to go .
I also don't know why I will want to go for the course , perhaps I want to go back to meditation.
Course theme : Love myself .
What an good theme right?
Strangers again , well I'll try my best to socialise then.

I don't like to dance with them ..
They spoils my mood.
At last , time to be serious for dance again .
I'm way too far from everyone progress.

I wonder what I have done after so long ...
What I have done for myself?
I want a nice holiday overseas.
I want this year to end soon , I want to lead a good and fulfilling year in 2010.
I dread 2009 way too much .
It's a bad bad year.

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2009-11-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

Today wasn't a good day actually .
Went to help teacher out with p1 orientation for his enrichment classes.
Instead of going for my school open house hehs.
Got free macs as reward for lunch .
Went for dance , Broadway.
I didn't like it that is why my face damn super like people owe me something or offended me .
Went home and out to Sitex.
Alot of in between arguments in the family today.
Making each other unhappy.
I didn't buy anything there expect for my brother who bought his mouse
My main motive was to only get the price list -.-
Weird uh , this time Nikon didn't join the show .

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I swear it was damn shiok just now man .
In the mrt , there is a kid keep moving about , sitting beside my brother .
He kept poking my brother and touching his psp.
Some inside news , I shalln't say cause it can't be told in public.
My mum was afraid that my brother would whack the kid so she moved from beside me to the place where the kid was seated.
So the kid came sat by my side . Wth...
He was making alot of noise and whatever he was said , mostly I didn't understand .
Yeah , I shh.. him .
He damn naughty la , spit saliva on the chairs then keep shh shh shh , repeat what i shh him .
So his aunt or mother , I don't know who la , act act and come to like lecture him lor .
Keep saying like , don't be a nuisance or what , later people think she never teach him or take care of him etc one la.
Purposely let me hear one -.-
He kept asking her , who shh him one.
I almost said its was me , then she keep saying saying saying , don't let me interrupt .
Then just nice , JE we alight .
Then my mum also tolerate the kid very long liao , come out and say he 没家教.
Then the woman started shouted etc la .
What he only 5 years old or what .
My brother damn pissed off , he shouted : " Shut the fuck up! " in the public at the JE platform
That time , I damn happy sia ! Good scolding man . I like it Uh-huh~
Just scare she don't understand only ~
My mum wanted to go back in the MRT and quarrel with her .
Luckily I pulled her away .

One of the woman , i think is the real mother took my brother photo .
Lousy mother , don't you know you should take care of your kid 24 hours .
Its your responsibilty man .
And the fucking bitch who shouted , please la
Don't wear imatition of bebe please.
Normal human beings see the bebe shirt of yours also know its fake
Moreover , at least wear a fake bebe like a real one can anot?
Your auntie wearing make me laugh man .
If just now my mum took a photo down , I bet i would just go for STOMP.
Not bad right ?
Maybe just in case that woman come and do a report on us , i should check on the news online and newspaper tomorrow =]

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2009-11-27T21:19:00.003+08:00

把不开心的放下，才能开心的笑着

Out with Kanglong & Eugene today.
It's a long time we ever met and going out today.
Had a really fun today.
Went Marina Square and had YukiYaki , first time having it.
& just like what others said before , it's really nice.
Especially the D.I.Y icecream part.
I don't have the pictures with me , its all in KL's camera.
I was really touched when they were so determined to get stitch for me even though I said don't want.
They wanted to the that extra big stitch for me too , which needed 6 wins .
Crazy.
There is like a group of old man spending just $200+ dollars to just have fun at the machines
And didn't want the prize .
Too much money they have I think .
Thankyou , Good old friends always know each other well .
=]
I really enjoyed today, so much

Walked around with my stitch , everyone was looking but well , I didn't mind
Went to KL's house for awhile , while gene waited for his friend .
Ahem! He 1 guy date 4 younger girls uh .
Haha!

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2009-11-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

Maybe I neglected how you felt .
Maybe I will never understand how you feel .
Maybe I just trying to let things be the way they are now .
Maybe I wasn't a good friend who cares about how you feel .

I just felt I did something wrong today .
In action or words , I really don't know .
I know whenever you saw him , your heart wants to see him yet you felt the unhappiness arise again.

Runaway , how long can you run ?
Forever? There is something called reality in the end.
Seeing you upset , I sighed because I know I just couldn't do anything .
I said nothing because I was hoping nothing would make you feel better when you walk away.

Remember the fashion runaway?
There are many different types of stories of the runaway .
But this time , its this .
From the backstage , there is only 2 kinds of models .
1 will confidence , willing to face the crowd outside , walking out & making everyone impressed.
Other one , timid and afraid of the crowd , backing out .
I want you to be the confident model , get over whatever you fear for and move on .

I don't need you to promise me anything anymore .
Do anything that just make you feel better .
I won't say a thing ..

I don't know what gotten into my mind .
I just felt I done something wrong .
Really wrong , that upsets you .
That make myself really unhappy .
Sometimes , I just hated my instincts .

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2009-11-22T21:24:00.001+08:00

Maybe for some others they found this trip fun .
But not for me .
I don't like the place so that is mainly why I didn't enjoy it .
At Vietnam for barely just 2 hours , I just want to take a flight back to Singapore like immediately.
The environment is bad , when we are in the bus , scenery outside just scares you .
Air stinks like hell
You see the streets filthy , filled with litters and dirty water .
Buildings were rundown , seeing alot of stuffs that weren't for our eyes.
The aircraft was really small , budget and everything bad.
Air stewardess were not that good looking , unfriendly and the pilot were bad in skills .
Drinks if have ice cubes , they only gave 1 .
Food were just 2 breads that were hard to bite.

War museum , no aircon at all. Where got museum don't have aircon one !
Some church we went to , then go to some post office?
The tourist security act infront of tourists only .
Let us think they very hardworking but they weren't at all.
Dinner at Lion City.
The restaurant beside the girl's hotel. at least to me , I preferred that place.
Because they sell Singapore food ! The cook was a Singaporean .
But meals were budget , I meant everything were budget .
The portions were small that we had to ask for more rice & eggs.
Firdaus with his proud acheivement of 33 clams that night
Hotel room , bed hard to sleep , heater was like argh !
I dont know how to explain .
You turn on the hot tap , they give you cold water .
You turn on the cold tap , they give you sometimes hot and sometimes cold.
Mrs Loe and Miss Ng were just next to my room & its not really sound proof room .
I shall not elaborate for day 1 already

Day 2
Woke up and I tell you , I'll never sleep on the same bed with Andrea again !
Waking her up is a tough job !
Don't know she deaf or what , can't wake up to answer calls is it . I still must climb over her to answer the call .
Next time must slap her to wake her up.
Went to orphange was supposed to interact with the children BUT
instead we interact with the teachers instead , but the language just cant get through .
It was their teacher's day , see them sing dance and flower presentation .
Lunch at KFC .
Went to Cuchi Tunnel .
Mosquitoes loved me -.-
The first tunnel was short , so everyone tried.
The second tunnel , I think I must be crazy , I did actually went in that super small hole .
The third tunnel was tiring !
Bats scared us , people screaming , ears deafening , I only screamed with the bats were flying .
At the slope just before the super small hole that you had to climb up .
Starting from me , the whole row of people just sat there and rest when there were some blockage down there -.-
It's really tiring for the legs and its hot in there and I always thought that I was going to suffocate .
I scratched my back and there is a red patch down there now .
Pain whenever I lean on my back .
Out of the tunnel , I was like half dead , everyone were sweating .
My legs were trembling and I almost can't walk any further .
I realised this trip , Mr Loo like to nag at me -.- just like the way my father do.
Dinner , with chicken kwayteow .
Weird vegetables like leaves . Sweet weird taste curry.
Vietnamese water puppet show .
Cool and nice effects but we didn't understand the meaning of it .
As it was in Vietnamese .
Judith , Tresis and my hands were damn tired because we took videos of it .
Night time , found a dead small cockcroach when we came back hotel room .
I kept laughing if I saw myself in the reflection or what .
Tresis keep thinking that I was crazy.
Both of them slept , but I just couldnt get to sleep .
I wanted to go and find Sanna .
But I couldn't leave the room , because both of them were asleep..
Till very late at night then I managed to fall asleep.

Day 3
Tired , Sanna mention something to others that make me feeling something .
Went to Mekong Delta.
I swear I hated the bus driver , keep beepbeepbeepbeep.
He everyday beep 1 time , I scold 1 time vulgarties.
Sat alot of boats , went to different islands .
Mosquitoes love me again .
River so smelly , water so dirty , so brown !
Bees are unloved too .
They stung Ahmui!
I see her cry , I also want to cry .
Too scary.
Poor her =[
I kept running around because of the bees and insects and dogs .
There isn't a time I can sit nicely in the island .
Sit on a sampan , Sanna was damn scared on the sampan la.
Pengguang was like : " Please do not anyhow spray water" or what one la.
Cause he keep kena the water which is really dirty lor.
The person who row our boat was damn fast la , keep overtaking other sampans infront .
Like was to compete or what when the canal so small !
I swear I was really pissed off when you took my phones away and I thought they were lost.
Mrs Loe was like saying he just playing a prank on me etc one la.
The more I listen to her , the more it made me cried .
You don't know how important my phone meant to me .
Back to Ho chi minh , I saw something eerie .
On the highway , I saw a nun or what , standing at the top floor of a building .
Fully wrapped and holding a piece of white cloth , everything white one lor.
Like going to do something like that .
Freaks me out . -.-
Went to some workshop that sells painting made of shells.
It was cool but expensive to buy .
Shopping at Saigon Square.
Saw Xianghao there but I dont think he recongise me .
I wanted to buy a necklace guess how much they want me to pay?
500,000 dorn. I slap her uh .
Those 9.90 singapore quality tell me so expensive .
I stupid then will buy uh .
Because of this , I think it piss me off to start my auntie style of bargain .
Sanna chuatio , that I would actually bargain off -.-
Supper at night .
Details shall be unknown
But I must say , really at night , you never expect you will see those stuffs you shouldn't see.
Right ? To those who went supper.
Slept very late .

Last day .
I was the last to wake up , too tired already.
Don't even bother to wake Andrea -.-
Shop again but there were nothing much actually
Just a place to spend all my money off .
Flight back to Singapore at last.
Was damn happy la , Andrea and I was like Singapore land! when the plane was going to fly into singapore.
Once the plane touch down , both of us was like Yeah! Luckily not that loud
If not very malu .
But my country leh , who cares .
Keep complimenting Singapore for the very first time after I went so many times of overseas.
I called mama , she bluffed me she thought my flight 5.30 .
Then Andrea went out the baggage claim and told me , your mama got come la.
Kena cheated you know !
Once inside brother's car , I keep saying about how bad it was until I reach home also haven't say finish uh .

I never never go there again .
Mummy say I like go there war , come back Singapore first time like heaven to me uh .
Hahaha

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2009-11-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

Hey people , I'm going to Vietnam tomorrow morning .
Will be after 4 days which is on a Sunday .
Perhaps I will do a Reflection post on tuesday .
Takecare of yourself.
3B & 3D will definitely have fun at Vietnam yeah ! =]
I hope this trip will be a fine one .

& those who are going Langkawi , have fun and enjoy the great scenery there !
I heard that scenery are fabulous there .
Take good shots back ! =]

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2009-11-15T17:22:00.004+08:00

Meteor showers on 17-18 Nov , 12am to 5am .
I want watch it fall !
I think it will be so cool , never seen a meteor shower before.
Perhaps staying up to watch it .
Starstarstars !!

Ok , I'm currently sneezing for either I having a running nose or the dust is making me sneeze!
I really hate Sundays !
They always make me unhappy.
()#%&%)(*@*#)%&*&@$
Now I just can't concentrate on doing anything
Even I'm on computer now , I don't feel like doing anything.
If I stare blankly , I just move about in the end .
I want to go out with family and eat .
Mummy says its the test tomorrow that stress me up .
Maybe so .
I want deserts , ice-cream , cakes and whatever that satisfy me now !
I feel so , URGH ! .
Kill me off now .

Imissyousweetheart.
Ididn'tcallyouupbecauseIhatedcallinghousenumbers.
Nexttimeplease,donteverloseyourphonewillyou.
It makes you uncontactable for me!

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2009-11-14T23:37:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday EugeneTeo & ClementTeow & DesmondLau!

Bored the whole day , went for salsa without my killer heels .
Everyone say that I'm short =[ How sad .
Rachy was like giant when she stood beside me . Lols
Yeah , Mindy and Linn was happy because I wasn't that tall today
Blisters , I hate you !

Back at home , really don't felt like going to JSCC for dance.
You know , its like ahhh~ you are finally home then you have to get out of your comfortable room
and go out again .
Brother was helping me in try to help me call Mama and tell her , I don't want go dance.
In the end , failed .
Nevermind , went there alone without mama .
Had Macs for dinner again .
Ok . I admit , I'm sick of fries and coke already.
No more oily food for temporarily.

Taught them basic and Waltz again .
Daddy came to fetch me back =] , I didn't know he went to KBOX before hahaha!
Home-d , here I am posting with my brother beside me disturbing me .
Time for sleep soon .
Imissyou.

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2009-11-08T18:16:00.002+08:00

Shynn's Halloween Party was Awesome !
Thanks to those who made it a success .

Dance and performance yesterday.
Was peforming for some Indian Cultural event .
GCT was there , security was super tight .
Screening here and there each time we went in .
Check this check that .
Performance a sucess though we had mistakes .
But we were perfectly ok ! =D HAHAHA
We were still very happy when we did mistakes , no one realised so tada~

Sigh , maybe I had over high ego too.
I just couldn't see others that are better than me .
Well , what can I do also , since I made things out for myself.

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2009-11-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

For the past few days , photos up there .
& I'm so so so so so so so so so so so so super envy people who got DSLR !!!!
Especially Bernard ! Canon EOS 500D you know ?!
Make me so super tempted to buy one too.
But sigh ..

I'll snap more tomorrow =] with my lousy Fujifilm , if i'm bringing
I'm not going to elaborate on how my day went or what .
Its just so boring but I just have to say
I love Chemistry Practicals!
I love Biology lessons ! =]
Hope that we are able to go for the Body works!
Please , I will be so so so anticipated for it ! =D

But Noel & Sanna Wee , please uh , dont keep reminding me of things I shouldnt hear .
SSSHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! just sensor it off -.-

Promo

2009-11-01T16:04:00.002+08:00

★AES Dance Night 2010★

Date: 13th January 2010 ; Wednesday
Duration : 1 hr .
From 8pm - 9pm at Victoria Theatre.
Price : $20 .

★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★★

I'm going like so finally to support Rene yeah ! =D
I found myself weird to like support other school instead of mine.

Contact me if you want to get the tickets .
Leave a tag with your mail if you don't have my contact , cause I'm not going to put my mail up here .

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2009-10-31T18:33:00.004+08:00

I know you people miss me ~

I cant believe I actually joined the tweet-ing people out there to twit too !
Heels are my killers like every single Saturday for the next 3 more times .
My soles are like hurting , pain pain and still pain .
But Salsa classes are still fun fun and fun !
Better than boring Waltz and boring syllabus for Ballet.

There are still dance class later on .
Getting my butt to move out of my chair soon .

Hey Mindy ! Muahaha , great to know that I'm a stalker of you uh !
I'm a STALKER yeah !
I'm so lovable yeah !
I'm so not myself today !
Weird huh , I know that

Isn't this lovely ~ Right ? 坏人=]

Credits : Kelly ; Poopoo
I look super lean here.
& Sanna Wee , I dont like what you said about me wearing the blue shirt !
Hmph!

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2009-10-26T21:36:00.004+08:00

All I want now is to be save by tomorrow .
Really . Please , I'm really praying very hard to just get promoted.
I can't even be truly happy now .
If you see me smiling and laughing , maybe it was funny but my heart is still weighing down.

Yes , I admit I might not be trying hard enough for exams this year .
I promised , really , I will work even harder next year.

Please , I really want to get promoted.

我也只能在家哭，不想在别人的面前哭。
我只想坚强一点，加油啊，林依伶。
你很勇敢对不对，不准哭！

I will be fine , I will be .

Please . My prayers will be heard .
Fairies and angels , I know you are always there for me .
This time , I know you will protect me through right?
Especially Fairy Sweetie , I know you will always be there for me , always .

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2009-10-22T17:01:00.002+08:00

I wonder how am I going to explain to mummy when she comes back .
I know I didn't done well.
I thought I could at least just pass ..
But when included with the past marks of other exams , i actually failed so badly.
Maybe i thought i would just failed a little .
But it seems way so much .
It made me feel so terrible.
I didn't wanted to cry at first , until Miss Junaidah talked to me.
I thought I could control at least , and not cry infront of others .

But what if I retain ?
I wanted to be optimistic too but school always emphasize that English must be a pass to get promoted.
Yet , I got such poor results.

Friends , next time when you see that I'm not very willing to talk at all and know what happen
Please dont tell me its ok or everything will be fine , or don't cry anymore .
I will definitely cry infront of you which I really hate.

Thanks for the concern people and whoever that gave me the tissues.

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2009-10-20T12:04:00.002+08:00

Went K with Kelly and Rachy.
Its really fun .
But I almost cried they sang one song , which kelly said its for me.
And we sang one song , Rachy was hoping i didnt see it .
But too bad , I made her high with me.
Thank girls for the day .
Cabbed back , Rachy was sleeping on the way back , I wanted to take a snap of her one lor.
But confirm will kena killed by her .

Andrea and Andrew , you all better not quarrel from donno whose blog until my here hor .

Sanna Wee , you better dont laugh at me , People donno who to do only ma , need to laugh until like that one uh

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2009-10-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

Mummy and Brother went Japan yesterday.
I suppose they are in Osaka now .
I would be please to be there too but well , I just dont want to be like in heaven and once I'm back , later when results are released , all i got will be hell.

I was actually anticipating to go out with Rene , Rachy, Jaime and Julia tomorrow.
But Rene and Julia couldnt make it .
Which made me kind of disappointed really..

Who can I turn to now ..?
Rene? But she got her own stuffs to settle.
Rachy? I don't want to make her worry .
Andrea? I guess she had enough of it too.
Sanna ? I dont want her to think too much too.
Jeff? He got tons of people who goes to him , I dont want to add on.
Twinny? She is busy i suppose?
Dearest..? ='[

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2009-10-14T21:51:00.002+08:00

I just felt like posting today .
Chemistry , well I will just do what i can then .
I'm still thinking about Art =[
Thousand of sad faces =[
It seems so much to do ...
But I couldnt drop it since I chose to drop Amaths instead.

Exams are going on still .
Friday is for coursework students are the last paper.
I bet most Judith and I wont sleep on Thursday night then , have to rush art work.
I dont demand a A , i just want to pass everything.
Bio, something I love so much yet this time , I don't think I can achieve what I aim for .

It rained today, how sweet of Sanna to shelter me all the way .
Thanks Sanna.
Hahs , She scared she have to be responsible for me uh .
Cause I'm already sick , if drenched in rain then no need think of passing combine science and emaths.

Nevermind , I done what I can already .
So I must be optimistic no matter what results I attain..

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2009-09-23T17:23:00.002+08:00

I really don't feel like going to school tomorrow...
I have to admit , I still haven't got out of the fact
I still hated the fact that I didn't achieve well.
Maybe the school didn't mind .
But to me , I really mind alot .
Asking me go up the stage and get an award , the award I never wanted.
Isn't it like making me feeling even worse.

Sigh.. Mummy doesn't allow me to skip school.
The more she feel that I should glad and accept the award.
She knew how much I felt so against what I gotten.
She wants me to understand , its just a failure for the first time.
But this failure brought me to lose my confidence I have in myself.
Lose the determination to ever go for a competition again .
Perhaps , I was too arrogant in the past .
Each time , whenever I have a performance , I mind alot what others say about me or us .
And it affects me..
I'm afraid for a not wonderful performance.
I used to think everyone enjoyed my performance but after that failure.
I was too afraid to go for another competition again..

I guess if I get it tomorrow , I will just fake a smile then ..
No one knows it anyway.

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2009-09-22T23:07:00.003+08:00

There are times when we felt everything is hard on us.
I know you can do it.
I know you feel like crying , feel that you are the weakest.
Everything is going to turn out fine for her .
When you are tired , I'm always here when there isn't anyone to turn to .
I wished that everything will be fine for her .

我的最好的姐妹，我永远会做你的靠岸.
我相信,她会很坚强,甚至比我还要坚强.
All the best , my girl .